ramen | nomin

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disclaimer:
this whole thing is a mess of emotions and words being thrown all over the place, i apologize in advance :(

i.

i missed an important day for this book :/

june 12, 2019. marks a year since i published this. marks a year since it got a shit load of unwanted attention, but nonetheless, i'm thankful.

writing has always been my passion. ever since i was 10, i've always loved it. maybe even when i was younger.

at the ripe age of 16 (17 later this year) it has never left as one of my hobbies and definitely as one of my coping mechanisms.

when i feel like i want to do something i'll probably regret in the near future, i write. it explains why half of my drafts are just sad stories. this might not make a lot of sense, but when i write in a bad/upset mood, i tend to take my frustrations out on the characters i'm writing about.

i think it's worse when i isolate myself from everyone and everything. i tend to look back at the things that i've written in times of desperation to try and get myself back on track and they,,,,, they're just sad.

but! i'm not here to talk about sad things. though, if you are going through something, i recommend writing :) try prompts and challenges! it doesn't even have to make any sense, really. it's a great stress reliever for your mind can go and explore different ideas and creative pathways it can come up with.

not all methods work for everyone, but i hope you can try it out one day to see if it's right (write haha) for you☺️

anyways.

as i was saying, it has been a year since this has went up and i'm still so overwhelmed by the amount of attention it has gained. thank you everyone for loving and supporting this mess of a story. and for the few who support this mess of an author.

i'm not great. i'm not funny. i'm stupid. i'm an intellectual dumbass. and i'm probably one of the worst people to walk this god damned planet, but. but

i... i'm really really thankful. to even be able to achieve something as small as this will be something i'll always hold close to my heart. i know i sound like i'm accepting some sorta award right now, (i'm not winning a nobel peace prize, i knowㅠㅠ) but i'm just grateful.

i know i've done/said some very insensitive shit, and i'm still really sorry for it. i'm sure a few of you probably don't know what i'm talking about exactly, but i really want to leave it where it is. some of the comments and things that were said about me (i didn't really read all of it tbh) still replay like a broken record in my head even though no one said them to me personally. it causes some sort of physical ache in my chest and i'm not blaming anyone but myself for it. i didn't want to say that because i know i deserve it. but it just,,,, it just hurt a lot. but i know i hurt you all more. i'm so sorry.

that wasn't very yeehaw of you, linzey.

since it has been 1 year since this book was made, i want to give you all am insight of what this could've been. i did this for 1k, but i took it down cause it was dumb tbh. but now i think i'm dumb for thinking it was dumb💀

2 years ago, i had this idea that person a would go to a seven eleven every night to buy ramen from person b who they thought was cute.

overtime, this went from a and b to chanyeol and baekhyun (exo members for those who aren't familiar lol)

originally it was supposed to be baekhyun was a broke college student that the entire campus had a crush on the moment he transferred. him working at a 7/11 every night to save some money for his loans and whatever (idk how adult world worked, i was 14) and cause he still lived with his abusive aunt??? (surprise surprise, that bitch was always part of the plot)