Imagine Yesterday I found out I was pregnant and it was stressing me out. Durk and I weren't on good terms and our relationship was way too hectic to bring a child into.
He had a show tonight that I told him I wasn't going to because I was upset with him. Durk couldn't stay faithful and it played heavily on my self esteem. We've been together for 4 years and he's cheated more than a handful of times.
Despite all of that, I was going to go support him tonight and break the news to him. Hopefully he was happy about it. -
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I arrived at the show late because I thought I wasn't going to come so I got dressed during the show and headed over. I wanted to look at my best because unfortunately I was in competition with everyone it seemed like. Since Durk couldn't stay faithful I felt that he had eyes for everyone and I had to keep them on me. So I always had to look good.
I made my way to the back just as the show was finishing up and the people with backstage passes had just been let in. The back was low though. You couldn't really hear the fans screaming anymore. When I opened the door Durk was sitting on the couch with a white girl that had her hand halfway down his pants.
I knocked at the door making my presence known. When he finally looked at me he pulled her pulled from out of his pants and stood up.
"I didn't know you were coming, mama."
"So that makes this okay?"
"Don't start."
"I'm not keeping it. Goodnight."
I went to close the door just as he figured out what I said. I tried to make my way out the way I came, I could hear him behind me.
"What?!"
I continued to walk.
"Aye stop her."
One of his bodyguards which was one of his close friends stopped me from walking out the stadium.
"Ty, move. I don't want to make a scene right now."
He looked at me with sad eyes before looking back at Durk. Just as he was walking up Ty let me through the door. I took off to my car but I didn't get far.
Durk grabbed me by my arm and pushed me up against the car.
"You're not doing what?!"
He was in my face and the grip he had on my arm was hurting me.
"You're hurting me."
"Answer me"
He was yelling at me and it was scaring me.
"I'm not keeping your baby Durk, I hate you!" I yelled in his face and he raised his hand to me making me coward down. I was curled up against my car door.
He yanked me up and pushed me back against my car.
"I wasn't going to fucking hit you."
"I'm not keeping it. I don't want to be deal with anymore."
He let ago of and stepped back before laughing.
"You kill my baby, I'll kill you."
I pulled the gun that always kept in his waist band and placed it to my head.
"What the fuck are you doing?!"
"Kill me now then. I can't take it anymore, you don't love me." I was crying extremely hard and yelling at him. "Kill me Durk."
He reached for the gun but before he did I cocked it back making him freeze.
"Touch me and I'll blow it."
He held up his hands before slowly reaching for the gun. He wrapped his hands around it and gently took it from my hands.
I was a mess. So beautiful on the outside but was 30 seconds away from blowing my head off my shoulders.
Once the gun left my hands I fell to the floor. I had to catch my breath.
"Get up mama. I'm sorry."
"Don't touch me."
I stayed on the ground for a few more seconds before standing up.
"I hate you Durk."
"The baby is innocent."
"Fuck you." I pulled open my car door to have it shut again
"You're not driving. Ty will take you home and watch you. Keep you away from guns and sharp shit."
"I'm not your child."
"Yeah but you're holding my child."
He was speaking so nonchalantly but also in a demanding way. I was drained in every way possible, I had nothing to lose against Durk.
I pushed her catching him off guard. I tried to get in my car again which he shut the door again. I then threw punches at him making him grab me and pin me up against the car.
"What the fuck is your problem?" I'd hit him in the face and busted his lip
"Get off of me."
"You're testing my fucking patience. Go the fuck home, I'll be there soon."
"I'm leaving you."
"You ain't leaving shit." He pulled me away from the car before slamming me back into it "Stop saying stupid shit. We can talk about this is the morning."
"Let me go."
"If I let you go and you leave don't ever come back."
He let me go and I quickly got into my car locking my door after myself. I pulled out of the spot and sped out of the parking lot. I could see cursing as I left. - The room was dark and I couldn't sleep, I kept tossing and turning. The light from the hallway was interrupting my sleep.
