Intimate || Imagines & Unfinished Stories

003 Sold Out Dates | Lil Durk

After what just happened I was definitely going to get the abortion and move back towards California, where I was from. I couldn't be around Durk anymore I was now terrified. He hit me with his child in my belly, what else would he do?

After he left I closed and locked the hotel door.  I showered and got myself together. My face still was a bit tender but it wasn't red anymore. I didn't know what to do, he knew where I was.

The only plan I had was to sleep in my car.
I began to cry again, I felt so low and stupid.
I had nothing out here without Durk being around. The house we stayed in was in my name but he paid for it. He wouldn't let me work, he said he just wanted to take care of me and my stupid ass fell for that.

I heard the door opening so I ran into the bathroom and shut the door. I leaned against it because there was no lock on the door.

"Open the door, please."

Durk twisted the knob a few times. I felt him lean against the door but he wasn't trying to open it.

"I'm sorry. That shit earlier....wasn't me. I never planned on that. I'll never lay a hand on you again. Please just come out and talk to me."

I was still crying and it was getting hard to contain in. I was in love with this man but he was so toxic.

I let go of the door allowing him to open it.
As he took a step in the bathroom I took a step back.

"Don't be scared."

He walked to me and grabbed me pulling me against his chest. He wrapped his arms around of me tightly.

"Don't cry, mama. I'm sorry."

He pulled away from the hug and looked down at my face. He kissed over my cheek a few times then grabbed my face in his hands.

"Take this please."
He pulled a pregnancy test from his back pocket and held it out to me.

"You so beautiful, our baby gone be so damn beautiful too."
I shut my eyes allowing more tears to fall.
"Keep it, baby please."

"Why? You can't keep your dick in your pants, you probably have another baby on the way. Why is this one so special?"

"Because I'm gone marry his momma."

"You don't even love me."
I cried a bit more

"What do you want me to do to show you? I'll do anything."

I looked away from him and squeezed my eyes shut.

"I want you to leave me alone."
I couldn't finish my statement without breaking down again
"I don't want to be with you anymore, I'm scared."

"And you come to this conclusion now? You pregnant!"
I couldn't look at him.
"Anything except that."

"That's all I want from you."
He reached out to hug me but I flinched making him drop his hands

"I won't hit you again. I'm sorry, how many times I'm gone have to say it?"
He was apologetic but he was also an asshole so everything he said came out selfish
"What else can I do? I don't want you to leave me, I'm in love with you."

I just wanted to be away from him but I was also curious.

"I want you to get tested."

"What? Like a STD test?"
I nodded
"For what?"

"I was scared to this morning at the clinic because you cheat so much, I just knew I had something."
I could see him clench his jaw through the mirror

"Ok. What else?"

"Leave. I don't want you around."

"So you can disappear again? Nah."

"I won't disappear. I'm going back home."

The tension is the room was strong after those worlds left my mouth. My head was held down, I couldn't look at him. His fist was clenched tight.

"So you gone hop on a plane and leave me with my kid in yo stomach? What he not gone have a two parent household? He gone take flights back and forth to see me? You hear yo self?"
His voice was rising

"I'm tired... and stressed. I might not make it to term with my health right now."

"So you wasn't gone even try?"

I didn't answer. I wanted to get rid of anything connecting me to Durk even if it meant this child. He also knew going back home to my parents would seal the deal with the baby.

"You know I won't be welcomed home pregnant. I have no where else to go...but my car."

"Yo car?! There's a big ass house you was just living in with yo nigga last week! I gave you everything you fucking wanted all the time and you leaving me?! Ungrateful bitch."

I took a step back from him and wiped the fees tears that fell over the past few minutes.

"I only wanted you."

"What?"
I guess I had whispered

"I only wanted you. I wanted to be your one and only, I never had that."

"What about all my money you spent like it was yours?"

"I wanted to be around you, I had to go with the program. I'm so tired now. Maybe one of the girls you've spent time with over the years can handle you. I can't anymore, all this stress will kill me."

I look over myself in the mirror. I could recognize myself but I was tired in the face and heart.

"Durk I'm leaving this lifestyle behind. Once my face heals I'll go to my parents house and start over."

"Please just think about the baby. And come to one more concert tonight."

"Not tonight. I want to rest."

"Please. Just this last thing before you leave me."
His voice was soft, he was begging. He grabbed both my hands and rubbed the back of them with his thumbs.
"Please mama."

I nodded then allowed him to place a kiss on my cheek.