Intimate || Imagines & Unfinished Stories

005 Daddy's Girl | PnB Rock

"Going home."

"Let's go right now."
I grabbed my keys from my purse and headed outside to me car. Rakim followed me out and got in the car.
"What about your little friend?"

"She's staying the night."

He nodded then connected to the aux cord. He kept looking at me from time to time as I drove. I never returned the stares because I was slightly nervous. The butterflies in my stomach started the day I thought I saw him and hadn't stopped.

"You hungry?"
I nodded.

"Stop wherever, I'm buying."
I stopped at a Bojangles and placed my order. I knew what Rakim used to like but I wasn't sure now.
"Order for me too."

I placed his old order that I remembered then looked at him for the money. He had a smirk on his face.

"What?"

"You remember my order?"

"Yeah, of course."

"You something else you know that?"
He handed me the money but we held a look for a second.

When we arrived to my apartment he headed to the island in the kitchen and eat.

"Let's go in the living room."
I sat on the couch waiting for him to sit down but before he did he pulled a gun from his waistband and set it on the table.
"What do you need that for?"

"We live different lives, nothing for you to worry about though."

"Are you in trouble?"

"Always."
He laughed but I was concerned
"I'm alright. Just eat."

I turned on Netflix then allowed him to pick what he wanted to watch. We were eating and watching tv in silence before he spoke.

"I know you want shit to go back to how it was but it can't, I can't bring you in my lifestyle."
I just nodded, there was nothing to say to that. He indeed did still know me and he shut down whatever future I thought could be there.

My eyes stayed glued to the screen although we were 2 seasons deep into a show I'd never heard of before. I didn't want to look at him.

"I'm about to go change. I'll be back."
I threw away my trash and headed into my bedroom to change into a pajama sweatsuit.

After my shorts were off I rested against my vanity with my head down.

If this was how things were going to be I didn't want to find Rakim. I want him around but I would be teasing myself. It's like taking a small bite of your favorite food.

I turned around to look at myself, an 'okay' face had to be put on in order to rejoin him but right now I looked down.

I felt pressure behind me snapping me out of my thoughts. Rakim had made his way into my room and was standing behind me looking at us in the mirror.

"I'm protecting you Toralei."
I rubbed my chin on my shoulder. He placed his arms around my neck and rested his chin on my head.
"Don't act like that.  I can't afford to take on something so important knowing it ain't for me right now."

"I was in love with you."

"I know and I'm still in love with you. That's why we can't be together right now. I'm gone bring you down and fuck your life up and I refuse to do that Tor."
I had been staring at him through the mirror once he began to speak and he called me my old nickname.

"How long?"

"How long what?"

"How long until you're out of this lifestyle? How long do I have to wait to have you?"