My Sunshine 💙

26- It Can't Be Permanent

❤️Romans POV❤️
It's been a few days since we'd last seen Virge. Each morning I've found Pat and Lo sitting in Virgils room, holding either a photo of the four of us or his purple hoodie. It hasn't been easy on anyone, but we will get through this. "Pat? Are you in here?" I go into Virgils room when no one else is around, I can't let them see how much its really affecting me. When I hear no response I enter his marvellously decorated room. Sometimes I got jealous over his room, I even asked him for tips once. I flopped onto his bed on my back so I would be facing the roof. It amazes me every time. I'd always find him painting and adding to it, he put alot of time into it and it turned out astounding. It was painted as a galaxy with glowing paint for the stars, but it also has parts that represent each of us. A sparkly crown for me, a baby blue heart for Pat and a pair of navy blue glasses for Lo. His most recent addition was incomplete but it was absolutely wonderful, in the fourth and final corner he had started to paint a black and purple hoodie just like his own. Each of them had accents of glitter and metallic paints. I would do anything just to have him here painting again, or just to hear him laughing like before. It's all gone now. I sat up and wiped my teary eyes whilst taking a few deep breaths. Before I stood I whispered something that would remain in my heart forever. "We miss you, our emo nightmare..." I thought I heard something from the other door in Virgils room so I took a few steps towards it, but before I could reach it Pat walked in. "R-Ro? What're you doing in here?" I turned to him and put a smile on so he wouldn't worry. "I was just--uhh..." I couldn't think of an excuse and my smile fell away. Before I could get another word in Patton wrapped me in a hug. "You're allowed to cry, ya know? You lost him too..." Pats voice was quiet and calm but I felt my shoulder getting damp. "I-I... We didn't lose him pat, not permanently." I don't let myself cry much because I don't want to believe that he's gone forever. Patton pulled away slightly and kissed my cheek. "I know, Roman. Come on, I'll make you some hot chocolate." he gave me a warm smile and left the room. I looked around once more and my eyes fell upon the container that Pat had found. I can't leave it here. I pick it up with care and carry it to the kitchen with me. "Why have you got that?" Pats voice was concerned and sad, it hurt him alot when he found it. He blames himself. "I just... If he came back and found it, I don't want him to use them...." pat placed a mug in front of me and sat beside me. "okay, where should we keep it?" I am unsure where we should put it, I don't want any of my beloveds to use them. "I'll put it in the imagination, it'll be safe there."

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Hiya humans, so uhhhh is this okay? Sorry for the angst.... But uhhh... Feedback anyone? I appreciate any input and I appreciate ALL OF YOU! Btw thanks for 1.17k!

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