My Sunshine 💙

32- Flashes

Virgils POV
It's been a few days since I want to the light side, Dee hasn't noticed as far as I know. The light sides have been visiting the other me everytime that I sleep, I try to take more naps through the day to help them out. Hey, we need to eat. 'what?' we've worked out that he can hear my thoughts so I don't have to talk out loud and look crazy. We haven't eaten today. Is something bothering you? 'I forgot that you eat when I do, sorry.' damn, we do apologise alot huh? I chuckle to myself and open a book so I don't look spaced out. I'm not worried about me not being able to eat anyway, I wanna know if you're alright. Are you? His question surprises me but he has been really kind. 'I'm fine, I just want you to have your life back.' our! It's not just my life any more, it's yours too. I stand up and head towards the mindscape library, maybe there's something there that can help us. I don't want you to think you 'took away' my life, you just... Showed me how I used to be. I scan over the spines of the books, reading the titles as I go. Are you just gonna ignore me now? You matter! How you feel matters! 'you can't really believe that, Virge.' I do. Did you just call me Virge? 'yeah, so?' what should I call you then? I think for a moment before replying. 'V2' really? V2? 'yeah, I'm the second you so it fits.' my fingers run along a book and stop. 'This one.' what about it? Wait is that- 'your--our diary.' read some...Maybe it'll help me sort of fuse with you. 'okay' I open up to the first page and begin to read.

Dear diary,
What the fuck am I doing? Patton gave me this before I started to help with the videos so that I wouldn't jam Thomas's mind with my own fears. Doesn't change the fact that I think this is stupid. Honestly, who talks to a book? I'll try it though, they already think I'm crazy anyway.
Fuck you     ~Virgil

'wow, colourful vocabulary.' that's one word for it. Read more.

Dear bitch,
Patton has been hounding me to write in here because apparently Thomas has been really anxious. It's not my fault! That princey guy doesn't like me either. Today has been horrible! I was just doing my thing in the library when he came along and kicked me out. He doesn't even enjoy reading. I hate him.
Yours anxiously, a bitchy racoon.

Okay that was a little agh- I started to see flashes from in the library like what I wrote about. Roman? He looks upset... 'you okay?' thew flashes stop but I don't hear virges voice. 'you there?' yeah, yeah I'm alright. I saw it through my eyes again. He sounded like he was crying. 'what's wrong?' I'm just happy, I never thought I'd be in my body again, even for just a moment. 'I'll read one now and more later' you don't have to V2. 'I want to.'

Hey fucker,
Today was a lot better. Pat and I have started to hang out more and Logan even complimented me! We had a debate for a video and it's really helped my self esteem. Pat asked me to help him make dinner so ill keep this one short, maybe life is worth living after all.
~virgeee!

Images flashed through my mind once again, but this time more clearly.
*flashback *
"Hey kiddo! Can you get me the potatoes?" Pat asked sweetly. "Sure dad!" I felt myself bouncing along towards the cupboard. "What's going on?" I grab the potatoes and stand to see Roman giving me a look of disapproval. "Anx is helping me cook." Patton said in a matter of fact tone. "how can we trust him with our food if we can't even know his name?" I look down at my feet and put the potatoes on the counter. 'I'll go... " I quickly walk out of the room, hearing the two of them bicker as I get further away.
*End*
'Virge, what was that?'