You're Mine. Namjin

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Honestly this chapter is so late, I'm really sorry about that, but I've just had so much work to do. Thank you so much for being patient everyone. I hope this chapter makes up for it. Let me know what y'all thought of it.

Namjoon's POV

"No no no! You can't put a queen of spades on a king of clubs hyung! Everyone knows that! Oh my God! Pick that card up right now! You're doing this all wrong."

I listened, confused on what to do, and slightly terrified of my little brother who looked like he was about to kill me over a game of cards, for the 5th time. I fucking hate cards because I don't know how to play and I always lose, but Taehyung insisted that we played cards after I confessed that I don't like them. That kid better watch out because he really annoys me and I'm just saying that if one day, he just randomly disappears, its no one's fault but his own. I really fucking hate cards, and Taehyung! And Jungkook is being extremely annoying right now, did he forget that he lives in my house?

After being yelled at by Jungkook for half an hour my patience snapped. It isn't my fault that I can't get my head around it, this shit is hard and he isn't telling me what to do, he's just yelling at me for what I'm doing wrong.

Fuming, I threw the cards at his face.

"Fucking shut up, Jungkook! I told you that I don't like cards, obviously I don't know how to play and maybe I would play better if you would actually fucking explain the rules rather than yapping at me for doing shit wrong." I finished, still raging, but the sound of Jin clearing his throat made me calm myself down and prepare myself and I realised that I had just yelled at my little brother, who Jin loves a lot, in front of Jin.

Why do I always fuck up in front of him? I better say sorry. Turning around, I was ready to say sorry to Jungkook but he was already sniffling, and being comforted by Jimin and Taehyung who, both glared at me, not that I cared about them, before taking Jungkook upstairs to their room I'm guessing.

I sat down and sighed, I know I've made Jungkook feel like shit when I was supposed to be helping him get out of his depressing mindset. I felt Jin come and sit down next to me. As much as I loved him, I wasn't in the mood to listen to him telling me off for what I did and how bad I've made Jungkook feel and how I'm a dickhead, so I just ignored him.

I heard him take deep breath. this was it, he's gonna yell at me and then tell me to get out of his house-

"Hey, are you okay?"

Huh?

I whipped my head around to look at him. Is he drunk or something? Is he gonna pretend that he's not angry at me and then suddenly push me out of the window when I don't expect it.

"I know it was hard for you to let Jungkook move in with you and accept your relationship with him, but you've done so and you've been such a good brother to him."

I scoffed, "Really Jin? You don't have to be sarcastic about it. I know I'm a shit brother, and you don't have to rub it in my face like this."

I heard him chuckle and I only sulked more.

"You're so stupid Namjoon. I'm not being sarcastic I'm being serious. I know it must have been really hard for you to let Jungkook into your life, but you're doing so well. I'm so proud of you."

I looked up at Jin and sighed. "But I just made him cry." I argued.

"And you've wiped his tears many more times than you've made him cry. And he knows that, he's really grateful to you Namjoon. You're so kind, my Namjoonie."

"But I'm supposed to be helping him, the therapist told me Jungkook was severely depressed. You don't understand, Jungkook is suicidal." My eyes quickly widened when I realised what I had told Jin. Shit!

"Uh Jin, the last bit was a joke." I giggled nervously, and to my surprise Jin also giggled.

"I knew about that before you Namjoonie, thats why I was so persistent on you giving Jungkook a chance. Why do you think I am so affectionate towards him? Do you know why Jungkook wanted to live with you?" Jin asked.

I thought about it and slowly shook my head.

"It was your mother Namjoon, even though she left you at her own will, the guilt of leaving you behind never let her, or the people around her, live in peace. Your mother always looked for you in Jungkook, and when she couldn't find you, she'd hurt Jungkook. You know that stuffed koala bear that Jungkook sleeps with, Do you remember it? It was one of your cuddly toys that your mother took with her. Instead of looking after Jungkook, she pretended that the toy was you and showered it with affection. She refused to admit that Jungkook was her own child. She repeatedly told him to die, thats why he's suicidal. I'm the one that asked him to move in with you. I thought that he's spent his entire life longing for love from his mother, but she only loved you. If Jungkook could get love from you, it would make him feel worthy of love. I'm sorry if you think that what I did was wrong, but at that moment, it seemed like the right thing to do. It still does, Jungkook has gotten so much better. Do you know how I know that? Because now when I see him smile or laugh I see genuine happiness in his eyes. I'm so proud of you Namjoon! Thank you for giving Jungkook a chance at life."

Jin scooted towards me and enveloped me in a warm hug, but my brain was still trying to process all the information that Jin just told me.

We sat in silence for some time, holding onto each other, before Jin pulled away, his face just a couple of inches away from mine, holding the most loving look in his eyes. I'd never felt so lovesick before, my brain didn't think anything through, my body moved on its own and I ended up pressing my lips on his, beautiful ones.