In His Eyes

Chapter Thirty-Four

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V E R O N I C A

Okay, I'll just say it. I'll let it out. I know it isn't right and it's childish and every bad word in the dictionary but, I'm happy. Okay?

I'm actually happy we started talking again. I'm done trying to push it away because it just doesn't go away and it feels kinda nice.

I probably shouldn't trust him. I probably shouldn't even let my guard down and I'll try my best not to but I just want to soak up this happiness before I cut him out of my mind.

That's if it's possible, Veronica. Or maybe you're just lying to yourself again. Regardless, I haven't felt this fulfilled in a long time and that's the truth.

I mean, it isn't actually qualified as mutual talking, considering that he does that the most and I just sit there whilst glaring at him. He didn't mention the kiss, though. Could he not remember it?

Don't be stupid, Veronica. He remembers that you told him to find you when he's not high. Well, taking the fact that I said that after the kiss. Could the kiss sober him up or... whatever that's called?

He'd still remember. It's not like the memory is taken away or fries away from the person when they reach the sun.

Yeah, that makes sense. Stop thinking about it now. Sending desperate energy, remember?

Right.

We are now out exploring the town with the gang. Everyone except Damon and Stephen. I'm pretty sure that little shit of a snitch is running away from me and my fist.

A girl can get no privacy.

We are hanging out. All of us went shopping together. Even the guys. We ate at a very cool and aesthetic restaurant with very minimal lights. It was very great.

Right now we are walking towards Blake's car to go home. It's safe to say that this morning went very good, now I can go back to the very good looking bed they forcefully removed me from this morning. They have the craziest ideas in the most unexpected time of the day.

"You've been silent." Ava says, nudging my shoulder with hers whilst walking beside me.

"I've been admiring the city and life around me." I say. "We don't go out like this much. We should consider changing that."

Lie.

How ironical. All of this city around me, yet I still search for you, Damon. Always.

His absence hurts sometimes. I guess I got used to those one second glances at each other while hanging out. I miss turning around and seeing him walk behind me, next to Stephen or to me.

"You are actually right. I had fun today, Ver." Ava says, shaking me away from possible depression. "Did you have fun? Are you feeling better? Emotionally, I mean."

I turn to look around for possible witnesses of this conversation. I see all of the guys walking together walking at a great distance behind us while Mike and Violet walk beside each other just a little in front of them.

"Violet." I call out.

She looks at me. "Yeah, Ver?"