He Belongs to Someone Else

Chapter 24

(ZANE'S POINT OF VIEW)

"I still love you Zane, I'll be waiting for you. Until you decided to be with me again"

The first message I read, as I open my social media account. Nanginginig Ang kamay ko habang hawak-hawak Ang keybord ng computer. I don't know what to response, patuloy Lang sa panginginig Ang mga kamay ko.

I thught, I'm already over her pero ganito kalakas Ang kabog Ng puso ko? Am I still in love with her?

I log out from my account and still confused of what I have feeling. I acted like a teen age girl. Opposite to what people expected us to act.  Well people always deceived us being strong and brave. Pero tao din kami, maging mahina at naging malakas, marunong din kaming maging masaya at masaktan. At higit sa lahat tumitibok din Ang puso namin para isang taong tingin namin ay special.

And I fell in love once, I fell in love with a very brat Villegas lady. But despite of her being brat, tanggap ko siya. Dahil gusto ko siya. Dahil Mahal ko siya.

But she broke me into pieces, she crumpled my heart like a scratch of paper. And she dumped me. And the last time I know she's with another man.

I'm desperate to win her back. But she keep on pushing me away. Lantaran niyang pinapakita Kung gaano siya kasaya sa iba.

Ano ba Ang nagawa ko para ayawan niya ako ng ganito? Naging mabait at sweet Naman akong boyfriend. Caring Naman ako sa kanya and propective. Does my love isn't enough? Did she ever love me like how I love her?

Maraming katanungan sa isipan ko that time. I'm suffered for my downfall my sister keep on motivating me. She let me see the beauty of life. She introduces me to many possible reason to be happy. And through her help and God's grace I overcome it.

It's been a week since I've received that message. And I decided to try, bi pa buo Ang loob ko but I want to try. Nag desisyon akong magpaalam muna saglit. To find my self. And to clear all my thoughts and feelings.

And there I saw her.

With another man.

And on the second thought.

There I saw her.

And she is the one who made me more confused about my feeling.

The first time saw her, I know there something in her eyes. Nakatingin Lang siya harap Ng altar noong mga araw na iyon. Malungkot at kitang-kita ito sa mga Mata niya.

I approached her. And introduce myself. I don't know what happened to me that time, but I want to help her, I want to change her.

Our second encounter is on the same place again. She is holding her camera. I smiled at her but there's no response from her. Medyo disappointed ako dahil dun. Pero ngumiti pa rin ako and tried to talk to her first.

Pero di pa rin Niya ako pinapansin. Until Ashleen came and introduce me to her. Pero Ewan Kung bakit parang ayaw Niya akong maging kaibigan. But I don't why, there's a part of me na nasasaktan. At gustong-gustong makilala siya Ng lubusan.

Sa dami ko ng tanong ko sa araw na iyon finally kinausap Niya din ako.

And suddenly she asked my number out of nowhere. I don't know, pero kinilig ako. Para akong Ewan. I'm so happy at that moment. Na nakalimutan ko Ang dahilan Kung bakit umalis ako sa seminaryo.

We've shared happy moments together. I'm comfortable with her. At unti-unting namalayan ko na lamang na gusto ko na pala siya. And my sister found it.

Dahil palagi ko na Lang  siyang ikwenento sa kapatid ko. Bukang bibig ko Ang pangalan niya. Na pinaghihinalaan Ng kapatid ko. My sister like Lian, for me instead of Kathrina. My first love and Lian's cousin.