He Belongs to Someone Else

Chapter 9

1. Visit him and talk to him.

I checked the side of my number one note. I close my mini-notebook and then keep it inside my bag.
This is it. I'm here already, nasa labas na ako ng pintuan kung saan siya nakatira.

I sighed heavily and walk towards the entrance of the church. Parang kailan lang kasama ko pa siyang pumasok sa loob ng simbahan.

I walk towards the chair, and look at man in the cross. He offer his life for His people, and I'm one of them. But I wasted a lot of time, because I'm busy making my life worse as what I'm expected it to be.

That was the biggest mistake of my life. To make it worst. Instead of making it wonderful and live it wonderfully, I did the opposite part. I'm such a disappointment to Him, but He never think about that, instead He send me a lot of person that bring me much lesson in life and taught me how to fight the worse part of my life. He accept me for who I am and for what I am. He accept my imperfection.

I look at Him with my bended knees, Tears are now starting to form in my eyes. Kasabay Ng pagpatak ng mga luha ko sa mata, ay ang pagsambit ko sa pangalan niya.

"I'm sorry my Lord, for I have sinned and make you disappointed a lot of time. I know I'm not worthy to call you my Father, and me as your daughter. But here I am, in front of you inside your holy home, bended knees and sincerely asking for your forgiveness." I close my eyes and sob in front of the Man, that I know would never leave me.

"I'm asking you to bless me and cleanse my heart and soul, para po sa muling pagbukas ko sa bagong kabanata ng buhay ko ay buo na ako, at malinis. Please guide me in every decision I made in life. Guide me My Lord, may the ray of your Holy light will guide my way to the right path" I enterwined my hands tightly and close my eyes. I never been into this kind of situation, talking to Him heart to heart. And I must say its really worth it. And fulfilling.

"Please, help me and be with me as I face all the storms that I will be going through, I trust in you my Lord, from this moment on I promise to trust you and to believe your will. Thank you so much" I open my eyes and wipe the tears in my cheeck. Basang-basa ito sa mga luha ko.

In the middle of wiping my tears someone handed me a white handkerchief, I look at the man who own the towel, I stunned for a moment. He smile at me sincerely, lumabas na naman ang mga biloy niya sa magkabilang pisngi.

What's with in this man? At bakit palagi itong dumadating kung kailan down na down ako?
May messenger ba ito? at sinasabihan siya na malungkot na naman ako, at pinapuntahan ako dito para damayan at bigyan ako ng aral para lumaban sa buhay.
Is he my living Guardian Angel? kasi simula ng dumating ako dito, siya palagi ang gumagabay at nagpapasaya sa akin.
Masaya din naman ako sa pamilya ko, I love them, pero iba itong si Zane tagos sa puso lahat ng mga sinasabi niya. Pwera na lang sa pagiging mahangin niya.

"Gwapo ko ba?" Panunuksong tanong niya.

"Here we go again, bagyong Zane is coming maging maingat people" naka-ngiting sabi ko.

"Bakit? Di ba ako gwapo?" Tanong niya.

"May salamin naman siguro kayo sa bahay niyo diba?" Tanong ko ulit sa kanya.

"Kaya alam mo na siguro ang sagot sa tanong mo" nginitian ko siya at umupo sa upuan at humarap sa altar.

I caressed my chest and sighed.
I feel relieved biglang gumaan ang dating mabigat kong dala-dala dito sa puso ko. Kunti nalang and it will totally heal, hopefully it will heal very soon. I smile at the Man in the cross "Thank you" Mahinang bulong ko.