enough

chapter 5

*1 week later* 
I hadn't seen Christian in a week since the Brewers were playing a series in Colorado. I was just chilling around his house most of the time since I was still applying to jobs without an offer. Mass Communication and media studies. I wanted to work for a radio station it had been my dream since I was a kid. I think applied to everyone in the Milwaukee area.

I was cleaning the house for when Christian got home my phone rang and in hops of it being him I ran to get it. It was just a number so I answered hoping it would be about a job.
"Hi my names Luke Redfield from WNSI, Is this Astrid Murray?" my heart starts pounding as the man introduces himself.
“Yes this is she, how are you.” I sit down trying to keep my breath in.
“In great, I was looking over your resume and I really like what I see. One of our female hosts put her 2 weeks in and I think you would be perfect to fulfill her position.” I heard the door open downstairs and didn't even run to it like I usually would.
“Hey babe I'm home,” I heard Christian yell as he walking up the stairs.
"Oh yes I would love to, when do you need me to come in, " I say trying to keep my excitement down.
“Thursday at 3 would be great,” Christian walk in about to talk but then sees I'm on the phone and stands there waiting for me to finish.
“Thank you so much have a good day,” I hang up and throw my phone on the bed running over to Christian kissing him.
“I missed you too,” he says laughing.
“I got a job offer,” his eyes get wide and he wraps his arms around my waist picking me up to spin me around.
“That's amazing, ”
“I know I'm so excited,” I walk backward falling onto the bed.
“You wanna celebrate,” he says flopping down beside me.
“You need to rest, ” I move over to lay on his chest.
“Nah I wanna celebrate you, ”
“Ok let's get everyone together and go out,” I sit up and smile at him planting a kiss on his lips. I missed kissing him, I missed smelling him, I miss looking into his eyes. I missed everything about him honestly.
“So we take a nap, take a shower get all dressed up and go have dinner, plan?”
“Plan,” we bother got up taking off our clothes to get comfortable to lay down. I needed a nap and could tell he did too. I laid down now getting comfortable waiting to see what his move was. He reached his arm out wrapping it around me pulling in him. Nothing at all could beat some Christian cuddles.

I woke up first and creeped out of bed trying not to wake him. It was 5:15 so we had all the time in the world. I turned on the shower and grabbed my phone turning on Shawn Mendes. I honestly didn't have a certain music taste I like everything. Christian did too so rides were always surprised for what was gonna be played. I got in the shower and felt the hot water rain down my body. I closed my eyes letting it soak my hair. I heard the door open and watch  Christian walk in and sit on the counter through the fogged glass. I washed my hair and glanced at him as he just sat there and watched.
"You better be taking me somewhere nice for this free shower your getting," I say wanting to break the silence.
‘‘Oh I will,’’ he says laughing I can see that he's biting his lip probably wanting to come in.

I finish washing and turn off the water grabbing my towel right outside the door. I get out as Christian walks in the towel around his waist dropping it. I brush my teeth and do some light makeup. I walk into the room grabbing my clothes. I put on a match tan shorts and jacket with a tucked in a white shirt.

Christian gets out of the shower stopping to look at me and smile. He put on a pair of jeans and black button-down with the Gucci shoes he always wore. He looked so good all I wanted to do was rip it off of him and let him do the same to me.
“Ready?” He says straightening his sleeves. I nod my head and grab my bag walking down the stairs. I grab the aux to go put on Frank ocean when Christian grabs my phone.
‘‘I made you a playlist the other day,’’ He hands me my phone. I look down to see a playlist names 'Astrid 🌙'. I got giddy looking through the songs. There were so many I loved so many I never but knew I would come to adore. I click shuffle as Rihanna's voice fills the car. I lay my head back soaking in the last few minutes of the sun. Christian slowly lays his hand on my thigh making me relax even more. I backtrack for a second to remember if I took my birth control, I did. I smile thinking of the things I wanted to do to him. Wanting to turn the car around and get started.

We pull into harbor house I try not to look so amazed but I knew how expensive it could be here. Christian gets out walking around the car to open my door. I step out and smile at him as he takes my hand leading me inside.
“Oh Mr.yelich so nice to see you how many guests are in your party.” the man says with a bit of excitement in his voice.
“Two,” we follow that man to the back for a table.
I order a sweet tea and Christian gets a coke. I came from a low budget family so I always went for the cheapest thing which was a salad. Christian orders a steak which I remember seeing as almost 36$. My eyes widen at his order. I'm cheap I'll admit it, but dear God 36$ for a piece of meat.
‘‘That's cute,’’ he said shoveling another piece of steak into his mouth. I raised my eyes what was so cute about me eating salad.
“Every time you take a bite you cover your mouth like you don't want me to see, " I take another bite instinctively covering my mouth with my hand as he finished his sentence. I put my hand and head down finalizing that bite as he tried to keep himself from erupting into laughter.

We were finishing up when the song changed to Neil diamond. I could feel my throat get tight and hand tremble. Damn Neil diamond that's all I heard when I was with Mikey. Every time I heard it I waited for a kick or a punch. I held in my tears and ran out of the door. I stood on the sidewalk hand on knees trying to catch my breath. God, I looked like I had just run a 10k.
“Hey are you ok,” Christian soon came running out the door getting on his knee to look into my eyes.
“Yeah just a trigger needed to get out,” I wasn't gonna lie cause it wasn't gonna stop if I did. I tried therapy and hypnosis. I tried pills but if rather feel something then nothing even that something is a panic attack.
“Come on let's go home,” He wrapped his arm around me walking me to the car. We didn't talk much mostly cause those things usually sucked all the energy out of me. But I couldn't help but smile he called it ‘Home’ not ‘My house’ but ‘Home’. Almost like it wasn't his anymore it was ours. Usually, that would scare the hell out of me. But I felt ok I felt like I was home.
“Sorry to be so blunt, but for the past hour an a half we've been out, I've been horny as hell,” I say turning the radio down turning in my seat to face him. I watch his cheeks turn red and can see the wheels turning in his head.
"How about we get home, Lock the house down and you do anything you want to me, " I say making my voice sultry trying to intimate him more. By the look in his eyes, it's working. I feel the car speed up and we arrive at his apartment in less than 5 minutes. I jump out and run in waiting for him to get his key. He opens the door and I run upstairs hearing him lock the deadbolt and put the code into the alarm system. I strip left in just underwear set posing on the bed.

He walks in the door finishing the last button on his shirt. He stops in his tracks and takes a second to stare at me. He pulls off his jeans and sits on the bed pulling me onto him. I stare into his eyes and kiss him gently then feel him wanting more so I give it to him. He pulls off kissing my neck.
“I wanna make you feel things like never before, " he says in-between kisses. He was my body felt like fire and it had a flame that could never go out as long as he held me.