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*3 weeks later*
~9 weeks~
I was set with telling everyone the news. Christian had to travel for mvp stuff. I told all the Dodgers and Brewers. We both decided to keep it out of the public for now. Once Christian got home for a short period of time we packed up and went to the house in malibu. He already picked out the babies room and mapped out everything in his mind. Before any decorating could start we had to go to Milwaukee. We hadn't told my family or anyone who wasn't a brewer back home. Christian had to go for press anyway so it was perfect.

I walked down stairs scrunching my face at the smell of the maple syrup.
"Hey you ready?" Christian shoved a fork full of pancakes in his mouth and shoved a bowl of oat meal. I shake my head up and down taking a bite. We had our first ultrasound and I would honestly say Christian was more excited then me. He bought all these baby books, and his computer tabs were just full of baby stuff.

"So we find out the gender in February and well be in Arizona, I'll drive you back so we dont have to find another doctor. Then we have to fly your family out for the party, if you wann do it here. Then we need to go shopping for the baby stuff. Oh and names I made a note on my phone." He was talking a mile a minute getting more excited.

"Christian,"
"I really like the second one for a-"
"CHRISTIAN!" I yell smiling his eyes turn to that sad puppy dog look and he gets quiet.
"Im so happy your so excited but we can take our time with this. We dont have to do it all at once. Were in this together."
"I love you. You love me?" His were soft and his smile even softer as he gazed over to me.
"Of course," I picked up his phone unlocking it and scrolling through the list on names he had. Piper, paisley, sarah, nevaeh, ruby, jaqueline. They were all girl names. I never thought of him to be a guy who wanted a daughter.

We got the clinic and you would of thought we were about to meet a celebrity. He was so excited and practically jumped to the nurse when she called my name to come to the back room.
"Hi my name is jade, dr.pawlins will be in here in a minute. Just change into your gown and lay down." I thanked my nurse and pulled of my sweater. The tank top I had on under it clung to my stomach show my bump perfectly. I day dreamed for a second staring at it then snapping out and finished changing. It wasn't just me anymore it was me and Christian. Now it was me, Christian, and who ever this little one was gonna be. Christian was the first I had been with that ever I wanted this with. JJ was my first love but I cant even put us together in this situation. And mikey was just a place holder that ended up being a bad dream. But Christian. Christian was the real deal. He was everything.

"Hi sorry to keep you waiting." The doctor walked in and I laid back on the table watching her pull out and turn on this big monitor. "Congratulations, I'd be guessing you're dad?"
"Yeah, I am." He smiles and has a sense of pride in his tone. I stare at the monitor and feel my breathing get stuff as I focus on the little mass on the screen that was starting to resemble a person. Christian's grip on my hand tightens as he let's out a sniffle. I dont bother holding the tears them streak down my cheeks.
"Wow." the only word I could make come out.
"Its just amazing isnt it?" I nod my head smiling at the doctor.

I laid in bed that night Christian asleep beside me running my fingers along my stomach. I feel my elbow nudge him and scoot over trying not to risk it again not wanting to wake him. The movement woke him anyway and he scooted closer to me wrapping his arm around me laying his hand on my stomach.
"I love you," he whispered making me smile.
"I love you too,"

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Soooooo it's been a minute but well.