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*2 weeks later*
"Cody You already picked out 3 lamps I don't need a fourth, "
"But Astrid it's cool, "
"Cody's this is my house that were decorating not yours, " I narrow my eyes giving him the mom look.
"Fine but it's your loss, "
"Come on let's pay for this, " I grab the cart and run past him hopping on the back of it gliding through the Ikea aisle. The Dodgers were playing a series in Oakland so Cody was staying with me since it wasn't that far from the park. I was mostly happy cause I would have someone to help me build everything. It was nice having someone with me I hadn't lived on my own ever, I always lived with family or roommates. The week I spent on the mattress I had was the longest week of my life. All I kept picturing was Christian somehow appearing beside me. His hand holding mine, us watching movies till the sun came up the next day. I wanted to just see what he was doing. Was he carrying on as usual? Was he taking a much-needed nap? Was he sitting at the piano learning a new song? Does he miss me as much as I miss him?
"You wanna get some chipotle?" I look to Cody confused not fully hearing his question. "Chipotle, You want some?"
"Yeah let's get some burritos, "

"So are you gonna go to any of the brewer's games when there in Oakland?" he says the question quick trying to just get it out. Taking a bite of his food staring at me till I give him an answer.
"Yeah probably to see Lo, "
"What about him seeing him?"
"Jesus Cody he's isn't Voldemort you can say his name, " I laugh taking another bite.
"Are you going to try and see hi- Christian." he catches himself and smiles.
"If our paths cross or he is just dying to see me then yeah, " He rolls his eyes at my remark making me laugh. 

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We unload the first few boxes and I was immediately happy the building had an elevator so I didn't have to lug these up 3 flights of stairs.
"Did you order something, " Cody asks sitting down the boxes he was carrying and picking a poster shaped one in front of the door.
"No, " I put my stuff down and look at it for a name.
"It just says brewers, " I scrunch my face trying to figure out what it could be. I unlock the door carrying my stuff back in grabbing a switchblade from the kitchen cutting the tube open.
"Oh my God, he actually got me it, " I hold the poster up and smile admiring it. I turn it around so Cody to see and his face just reads confusion.
"Is that Ryan Braun?"
"Yeah, Christian mentioned getting it for me but I thought it was a joke, " I let a soft smile paint face.
"Come on let's go make you a bed so you can stop practically sleeping on the floor." I keep the smile on my face nodding my head yes.

"You know what Bellinger you're really good a picking out lamps that match." He smiles dusting off his shoulders. I stick the last pushpin in the poster stepping back to admire it and the fully decorated room.
"You know the best way to test a new bed, ?" He smirks raising one brow.
"Cody, what the fuck?" I say slightly confused and angry.
"Astrid I was talking about a nap. What do you think I am some desperate man whore?" My jaw drops and I can't help but laugh.
"I hate you, set an alarm for an hour." I get in the bed pulling the covers over me him doing the same. "We're not cuddling," I feel him turn over to face the other direction and try to laugh quietly feeling his leg kick mine.

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"ASTRID ITS YOU, " Verdugo yells dropping the ball he was holding putting his hand up.
"ALEX ITS YOU, " I yell back raising mine. I run over to him giving him a hug as he picks me up spinning me around. Verdugo was one of my favorite people on this earth. When I was back home then on day Christian wasn't there packing all my stuff from his house he stayed on the phone with me for 2 hours just talking and going on about anything and everything.
"So how's the apartment look?"
"Great, everything's done that's to Cody, " I catch my breath from him squeezing me lazily pointing to Cody.
"So when are you and Cody gonna make it official, " I raise a brown and scrunch my face disgusted.
"Never, cause we're not together, "
"Come on we all see it, "
"No I'm not dating another baseball player, especially not Cody, " he rolls his eyes and his face reads yeah right. All I wanted and needed in Cody was a friend that's all I wanted and need from anyone right now. Maybe in a few months, few weeks, or even a few days id be ready for more. But all I wanted now was a shoulder to lean on and someone to play cod with.
"Hey Astrid, " I turn to the left my heart swooning to the sound of the guy's voice.
"Hi Corey, " I say smiling crossing my hand behind my back. He smiles back walking into the dugout past us. I turn to a jaw-dropping smiling Verdugo shaking his head.
"What?"
"You have a crush on Corey, "
"What no, " He rolls his eyes give me a look of disbelief. He was right to give it to me I had a crush on Corey before I even met Christian. "Yes but I said no baseball players, and I'm sticking to it, " He smiles throwing his hands up walking away.

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Dodgers take the win as usual 12-4 scoring 5 runs in the 7th inning alone.
"WRIST SO ICY WONDER WHY SHE LIKES ME BITCH IM DROWNING, " Verdugo and I sing dancing half-drunk from the alcohol I snuck in.
"Astrid when you are done with your party of two we can leave, " Cody grabs my shoulder whispering in my ear making me jump.
"Bye Alex" I wave following him throwing the bottle that only had about 2 shots left in it. He puts his arm around helping me walk.
"How did you two drink so much that bottle was huge, " he laughs.
"Don't ever doubt my ability to drink, " I say slurred uncontrollably laughing.
"Come on let get you in bed before you do something you regret-" The words barely get out of him before I trip over landing on my face. "Jesus Christ you're like a toddler, " I roll over practically cackling. Staring at the stars. He lays down beside looking up to. I let out one of those stupid drunk laughs making him laugh too.
"I love you Cody you know like friend love that kind of love. I friend love you too, "
"I friend love you to Astrid, " I could hear the smile in his voice making me smile too.