Blown Apart

16

Bronte POV

Mama (Chloe) spent the rest of the day with me in bed Mom had returned briefly to say she was going to check on the other kids and that she loved me. I could tell she had been crying and that she was finding it difficult to keep herself together. Mama had began to become tired and looked like she hadn't had a decent sleep in a while.

There was a small knock on the door as both our attentions went towards it for Dr Grey and Dr Robbins walked through.
"Good Evening Bronte, Mrs Beale-Mitchell. We are here for a small check up if that's okay with you too. Where's you're wife?" Dr Robbins questioned.
"She went out to... check on our others."
"About that... you can umm go check on her... and them too if you want too... I mean. You've been... with me all day... which isn't bad... but you need your sleep... and you can check if mom is okay and that umm it's okay as the Dr are here." I said trying to show that she could go and check on mom. I knew mom needed her right now and I didn't want to sleep.
"But I can be here with you the others are fine." Mama tried I could tell she felt bad about the prospect of leaving me.
"But mom isn't she needs you." I could see Mama thinking about it she also knew that mom wasn't okay so much to her discuss she agreed to go.
"Okay I will see you later." Mama kisses me on the head and then starts too leave.
"Get some sleep." I say before she response with "you too!"
"So we will be just doing some normal check ups checking your pain levels and making sure your good?" Dr Robbins starts and I nod in reply. First they just check the machines and make sure there beeping fine before asking me how I feel. I shrug. How is someone meant to answer that question my life has literally been changed in an instead and I am meant to rate it on a scale between 1 and 10.
"Fine" I say. And I don't mean it like in the movies when people say fine and it's like fine doesn't mean fine because of course I'm not but it some it up quite nicely I'm not okay because that is like everything is good and I'm nowhere near good but I'm not dead so I'm fine.
"And how's your pain?" Dr Robbins says. And I pause I haven't really thought about that I mean I'm attached to so many things that's it's dulling it, so I would know an exact clear answer.
"Okay... I guess."
I see Dr Robbins and Dr Grey exchange glances. Clearly I said the wrong answer.
"Bronte," Dr Robbins says moving towards me to sit on the edge of the bed. "We need you to be honest with us, we need to know how much pain your in if you want us to help you. I can only help so much if you don't tell us." I nod.
"It hurts but it could be worse." Clearly that wasn't right either, but I could see they were going to go with it anyway.
"Okay, where does it hurt?" Sensible question to ask, and I can see the look they keep glancing at each other a bit like if any second I was about to explode.
"My head is like banging... I guess and my chest and stomach hurt." I reply nervously scared of saying the wrong thing. And I know I can't in theory but scared nether the less.
"Okay, can I just check some things with your stomach if that's okay, check where it is sensitive, only if it's okay with you?" I nod they probably poked and prodded me when I was out so what different does it make. I lean make so she can touch my stomach and I turn my head away. She starts to put light pressure on my stomach and I gasp the pain is my stomach increase and she stops she moved around other parts of my stomach she stops after a while and writes things down on a piece of paper, on the clip board and exchange a worried look.
"We will have to run some further tests tomorrow if that's okay and we will talk with ur moms. If the pain gets worse if you press the call button and get the nurse to page me I can come and up you pain medication, okay? Get some sleep,okay?" Dr Robbins says as she begins to leave and look back to see Dr Grey still stood there.
"Coming Dr Grey?" Dr Robbins questioned.
"I'm staying for bit to keep her company. I'm off my shift I just need to get dressed. If she needs anything I can page you it's fine."  Half of that last part was directed at me. And I can see Dr Robbins being unsure. She nods and leave and I can see where waiting outside for Dr Grey when she goes to get dressed.
"I just have to go get out of my work clothes and then I will be back I can grab some food as well, so we can eat in here if that's okay?" My heart starts to elevate and I start to get nervous about being on my own and I don't know why.
"How... how long will... will you be?" I ask nervously unsure how long I could be alone for.
"We'll probably about 5 minutes to get dressed, 10 to get food and then 5 minutes for all the back and forth walking I'll be doing so 20 minutes and I will be back okay?" I nod nervously and unsure of what to say and I don't know what to do for 20 minutes it might as well be a day she is gone.
"What am I gonna do for... for 20 minutes."
"Watch tv, I'll be back quickly I promise." Dr grey comes over and squeezes my hand and look me in the eyes reassuringly knowing I'm nervous but she is unsure why. She takes on last look at me as she leaves and smiles and I look at the clock and start the count down nervously as my heart beats as I try to find something to watch but all I can feel is my heart beating out my chest.