White Lies ~~Cameron Dallas~~

Pt 17 I'm Giving Up On You

Authors Note: Grab some tissues cause this part will make you cry.

Astrids Pov

All I could hear was a voice yelling about me not getting up, but here I am sitting up in a hospital bed. I got off the furniture to tell them I was fine but fell to my knees and cried out of pain. I lifted myself up off the floor slowly. When I looked at the bed, there my body was laying like a statue, lifeless. I turned to where the voices were coming from and looked at the people standing behind the door, I saw a familiar mop of brown hair behind the door crying. I ran to the door as fast as I could and laid my hands on the glass. I hit the glass yelling his name but he wouldn't look, he just stood there crying and yelling at the doctors. I laid my head on the window and whispered his name in hope that this was all a crazy dream and that I would wake up any minute now to him laying next to me with his bright smile and sun shining through the blinds. But no, here I stand crying, yelling anything to try and get their attention. My words were lost in my throat and my yells were traveling through space. Nobody realized that I was standing here with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. Nothing is all I am now.

"Please Cameron."I felt a fresh tear fall down my cheek making me back away from the door. He cant see me. He can only see my body, not me. He cant hear me, he can only hear my body breath. He wont feel me. Only I can feel him. I fell to the floor and burst into tears once everything sunk in.

"Help me. Please don't let me go.Please. I cant do this anymore.Please. I don't want to be alone. I cant be alone." The last bit came out just above a whisper well tears fell down my cheeks. My voice cracked at the end of this unexplained moment.

"I'm not leaving until I see her!"I looked at the door and there Cameron was with an angry expression imprinted on his face but as soon as he laid his eyes on my lifeless body in the bed he ran to me and started shaking me like I was going to wake up and cry into his shoulder. But no this is reality, nothing goes your way. His cheeks were a dark shade of red as well as his eyes. When he looked at my body he wouldn't stop crying.

"Astrid please wake up. I cant lose my princess."My heart broke into two when those words lift his swollen but perfect lips. He traced my scared wrist and kissed everyone of them.

"I'm right here."I yelled as I got off the floor and stood by his side. He grabbed my pail and limp hand and laid his head on them and cried. No matter how hard I yelled he wouldn't hear me. No matter how hard I move around him, he wouldn't notice me. Its like I'm a ghost.

"Cameron I'm right here." I yelled but we both cried more. Please just hear me, please Cameron.

"Please." I whispered as I put my hand on his, and when I did he looked up with his brown eyes I have learnt to love, but they were surrounded with red sclera. It pained me to see him like this. It was a physical pain that shot through my bones like they were breaking, like glass being thrown at a wall. I expected him to hug me like there's no tomorrow but he went straight through me and walked away like he didn't feel me.

The more I yelled at him the more I lost hope. After he left my side everything went in slow motion, from him pushing the tables and throwing everything all over the place. The doctors were trying to control him but he would shove them away. I walked away from the mess and stood in the corner, I slid down the wall and crawled myself into a ball and cried into my knees. I watched in horror as the scene unfolded itself and add a little twist to it.

"Your a doctor, do something, save her, anything."Every word that left his plump lips took a hit to my heart making me wince and let another tear fall.

"This takes time sir. I know you love her and would do anything to save her but we cant do anything. We need to let nature take its path and take control over this situation." I watched as Cameron put his head down and nodded.

"Ok"That's the only thing that he said and left the room. No, I do love her. No, You cant just let nature take its path. Just, ok.

I looked at the mess hes made and walked over to the bed and fell back into place. Where I belong, where I should be. But no nature just had to fill my path with fucking rocks and lava. She thought I didn't have enough trouble so she added more. Fucking bitch, she always worked like that.

"You can sleep the night if you want to Mrs O'Connor."I watched my mom and waited for her to say yes and lay beside me. Play with my hair like old times but she replied with no and walked out the door just as fast as her reply. All I feel right now is rejection and hurt.

The two people I love left. Left like I was a piece of nothing, like I didn't meaning anything to them. Everybody leaves me but this time I hope I leave. They all saw my scares and left cause their ugly like me, my soul, everything.

Say something I'm giving up on you.