White Lies ~~Cameron Dallas~~

Pt 20 Five Words

Authors Note: This is going to be longer cause its 20...20s a cool number right. o'well who care. This ones going to have Astrids and Camerons POV just saying. Stay beautiful my piglets(;

Camerons POV

Its been four months and everyday I've been going in and out of her room. She looks more sick then she was before and today is the day they pull her life support out and I don't want to go cause once that heart rate monitor goes straight then that's how you will know I will go nuts.

I haven't told Astrid I love her yet cause I wanted to tell her in person but I guess this is the only time I can tell her well shes breathing. My clothes insisted of my grey Cam jumper, black jeans with my black vans.

1:39pm

"Cam are you ready." I opened the door and nodded my head not trusting my voice. Nash and the boys said they would be there every step of the way. I love them.

Once we were in the car I was already scared to see my girl lose her life. Lose my life. Whats going to happen after shes gone. What am I going to do. How am I going to act. Whats going to happen with me and the boys. How will I cope.

"We're here."We walked out of the car towards the slaughter house. Everything moving in slow motion, only thing I could hear was the rate of my heart beat and the steps of my vans. The walk to her room was more slower and daunting then the first time. I took in every detail like I want to remind myself that this day is the day my  life will die and that I want to remember everything I can, how I felt, how I looked, every face I pass, everything. Once we were in front of the door everyone went in well I stood at the door like a lost puppy. The air tubes stuck to her nose and the iv cords stuck in her arm made me want to faint. The scares on her wrist were still noticeable making me want to cry.

"We'll start when your ready." My heart jumped but my body was solid like my feet were concreted to this very floor. But I nodded and went back to watching to boys hug her and say their last goodbyes. Tears were falling from their eyes and then and there I knew that they thought of her as family well I thought of her as my wife.

I stayed there for half an hour just watching them cry and hug each other. After they finished they walked out with tears in their eyes and said I can have my time with her alone then hugged me to show me they loved me and they were here if I need someones shoulder to cry on. I took a big breath in and walked in but before I did the doctors walk in.

"I'm sorry to say but we need to get this over with." The doctor said in a monotone voice. He didn't care his face showed us all. He looked like he just wanted to get it over with and leave her to rot, that bitch.

"But you said we can take ou-" The doctor looked annoyed when he replied cause he put the clipboard on his hip and put his weight on his left foot.

"Doctor Marshal said it not me. Don't take in personal."I shoved him against the wall and spat in his face well I talked.

"I haven't had my time with Astrid and if I kick your ass right here don't take it personal." The last four words I mocked his British accent and let him go. He looked shocked then nodded and left with his other co-workers.

"I'm sorry you had to hear that Astrid."I walked over to her bed and held her hand in mine tighter then I ever did before. I turned her wrist over and saw her cuts going all the way till the middle of her arm making me cry again. Why would a beautiful girl want to hurt herself. Why?.

"I don't know if anyone told you this but their taking your life support today and if you don't wake up its done for."I pulled myself over so my face was in the side of her stomach.