everytime x Nick Mara

"I'm just lost without her"

~Nick's Pov~

Another fucking month and she still isn't up. I did go home and shave like last week. I cut myself more than once because I was rushing to get back. Emma better not be tired after this long ass nap. I don't want to leave her side, at all. Dante and Marissa walked in.

"Still here" Dante asked putting his hand on my shoulder. This has gotten us to grow together more.

"Yup and she's still sleep" I said. I sighed as I kissed her hand for the 100th time this day.

"When is the last time you had something decent to eat" Marissa asked.

"When I went home" I said.

"Dude you haven't been home in a week" Dante said shaking his head.

"So what" I said.

"Look at you, you are ruining yourself" Marissa said.

"You don't feed yourself or clean. You stay in this room 24/7. Emma would not want You to do this" Dante said.

"How would you know what she would want" I asked.

"I have known Emma longer than anyone in the entire group. She's my sister for god sake. She always cared about others before herself. She wants you to live life" He said. It sounded true.

"Emma would say, Nick it's my fault not yours. I did this for a reason. You need to go and be with family. Evelyn already lost her mom, she can't lose both parents" Marissa said. It sounded exactly like what Emma would say. I let out a tear.

"Fine but I'm visiting everyday" I said.

"As long as you take care of yourself" Dante said. I nodded. They made me leave the hospital. I walked outside and it really sucked.

I took a deep breath. I had to try to live life without Emma. I walked to the car. I looked over at the passenger seat a d thought of her. I turned my head and started the car. I drove to the boys house and picked up Evelyn.

"Wait, is Nick not in the hospital" Zion asked in a surprised tone.

"No, Dante made me leave" I said.

"Its not healthy to be in that hospital all the time" Edwin said.

"Its not healthy to be without Emma" I said. He nodded his head in a touche way.

"Evelyn's is sleeping" Austin said.

"Ok, I'll just stay until she wakes up. I sat on the couch.

"You look so rough" Zion said sitting next to me.

"I know I, I'm just lost without her" I said.

"That's what Emma was saying. When you told me about the phone call. You two need to find yourself without each other in order to keep each other" He said.

"What"

"You have to learn to live without her so when she does come back it's even better. She never wanted you to lose yourself when you lost her"

"So what your saying is" I started.

"What I'm saying is live life ok" He cut me off. I nodded.

"Daddy" I heard a sleepy voice say. Evelyn was standing near the couch.

"Come on, we are going home" I said holding her hand. We walked to the car and I drove home.

~Emma's Pov, coma~

Ok this is just fucked up. Every time I walk away from them they fade away. So I am going to try something different this time. I am going to go to someone else's house. I was in the studio, again, writing the blurred words.

"Nick can you feed Nadia" I asked. Just like last time.

"Of course Amore" He said again. I walked upstairs.

"Let's go we are going to Dante's " I said grabbing Nadia without giving Nick a chance to answer. I got in the car and sped to Dante's house. Nick and Evelyn got out of the car and walked to the house.

"Hey Nick" Dante said opening the door. They bro hugged. I was confused. Dante has never acted that friendly with Nick. a

"Hey Emma" He said. I gave him a confused smile and walked in.

"Dante can I talk to you" I asked. He nodded and pulled me away from everything.

"Did you forgive Nick for cheating on me" I asked.

"When did Nick cheat, he never did that" Dante said.

"What" I was beyond confused.

"Emma you lost some of your memory when Hunter shot you" He said. He must've lost his memory.

"Don't you hate Nick"

"I've never hated Nick. He's the first one you brought home that I like" He said. I am not home. I am nowhere near that.

"Oh" I said.

"I love you Emma" Dante said.

"I lov-" I tried to get the words out but I choked. They wouldn't come out, then the pain in my chest came back. I looked Dante right in the eyes and they were dull, almost lost. I held his hand and it started fading away.

"No" I said.

"No,NO,NO" I screamed. I ran to the livihng room and it was gone. There was nothing but emptiness. White emptiness.

"Please come back" I said. I started to cry. I went to sit on the ground and fell. Almost like I was falling through the sky. There was a big building, I looked into one of the windows.

I couldn't believe it, it was me. The family. I watched me run away with the pain in my chest. Every window had the same thing in it. I looked into another window and I saw myself.

I was in a room all alone. The room was white. And there was another person. It was Nick. He was sleeping, it looked like on air. But we were far from each other. I tried to reach out to him but I hit something hard. I looked around the room, there it was.

There was the pen in my hand and the paper in front of me. There was the baby crying. This was a dream.