I Need U (Kim Namjoon x Reader)

Chapter 13

I'm in love with you.

One month, nothing.

I'm in love with you.

Two months, nothing.

I'm in love with you.

Three months, nothing. During those months, the lessons went on as if nothing had happened. There was an unspoken rule that what was said would not be discussed. It wasn't you that made the rule because you had been so confused every since. It was Namjoon who refused to talk about anything other than lessons. You figured it was because he realized the implication and had stopped liking you. Well, loving you.

After confessing, he offered no further comments or explanations. When you tried asking about it, he completely changed the subject. It was even more difficult since you had no one else to talk to. You obviously couldn't tell Taehyung without him wanting to fight Namjoon and you were sure your dad would react the same way. Your mother would ask questions which you had no answers to. You felt completely alone.

There was a knock on your door. It was your mother, she had just finished washing the dishes after dinner. "Namjoon called." she announced. You sat up quickly from your bed.

"What did he say?" you asked eagerly and ignored the raise of her eyebrows.

"He said he won't be able to come for a couple of days."

"Oh." you said with obvious disappointment. "Did he say why?"

"Something about his mom, but he didn't say much." she replied. "I'm worried something had happened to her."

"Do you happen to know where his mother is staying?" you asked.

"He only told me it's near your hospital."

"That narrows it down to like 5." you said sarcastically.

"I guess you'll have find it yourself." she shrugged. Before you could question her, she winked and closed your door. Sometimes you wonder if she's really protective or just really wild. Taehyung burst into your room soon afterwards and you two watched a movie on his laptop.

"Taehyung, how do you know you like someone?" you asked.

"When you heart does weird things." he answered without looking away from the movie.

"What kind of things?"

"Like beating faster, or not beating at all."

"Have your heart ever does that?"

"Yeah, all the time when I'm with Yoongi hyung." he answered casually. It was no surprise considering how clingy he was with Yoongi, always holding hands and hugging. Though they all do that with each other so you really couldn't tell who likes who. "Wait why are you asking this?" Taehyung asked and paused the movie. He snapped his head to look at you and frowned. "Do you like someone? You've been at home all this time so it can't be anyone at school. Is it Jimin? Or Hoseokie hyung? It can't be my Yoongi hyung, right? Oh well, at least I know it's not that jerk Kim Namjoon."

You made a strange noise that made him look at you. His amusement was gone and he was dead serious. You hated this Taehyung because he got increasingly more protective and even blunt. "It's not that bastard Kim Namjoon, right?"

"Taehyung, what has he ever done to you?" you asked.

"There's something about him that makes me wary. I hate that he's around you. He'll try to manipulate you, I just know it. Tell me it's not him." he begged.

"It's not him." you lied, assuring your twin who nodded and went back to the movie. The unspoken twin rule is to not do something that would hurt you, because it would hurt the other more. Taehyung didn't care about him being hurt, he had always been more conscious about your health first. Well, you can definitely cross Taehyung off of this list.

In the morning, your mother offered to take you to the office to hang out but you reminded her that you were perfectly capable of taking care of yourself for a few hours. They were hesitant, especially Taehyung but he trusts you. Maybe a bad decision considering as soon as they left, you were already preparing for your trip. You didn't know how long the visit would last or if you would even see him at all. Nonetheless, you still cooked some food and wrapped the tupperware neatly in a cloth.

As you expected, there are numerous hospitals in the area. It would be a pain to figure out which one he was at. But you narrowed it down to a couple that specializes in cancer treatment and at a price that Namjoon could afford. "Guess I'm going to both." you sighed.

The trip wasn't exhausting, walking around and asking nurses about his mother was. And considering you didn't really know her name, it made the nurses even more confused. But when you described Namjoon, you got the same reaction as when you would mention Taehyung. They giggled while hiding their face behind their clipboard and pointed down the hallway.

True to their word, you saw through the small window on the door that Namjoon was inside. He sat next facing a woman with fragile features. She was asleep, weak breathing and it almost looked painful. Namjoon saw that and patted her hand gently, as if to soothe the pain away. He said something that you couldn't make out the words, but there was a smile that accompanied it.

Gingerly, you knocked on the door. Namjoon slowly looked over, clearly not expecting anyone to visit. His shoulder popped up when he saw you. "Eomma, I think I'm going crazy." he said to no one. "I just said I miss her and she's right here." Confused, you waved your hand to catch his attention and he looked like he was about to fall off his chair. He rushed to the door and carefully flung it open. "You shouldn't be here!" he said, it was like a whisper-yell.

Your smile faded. "Oh, I-I guess I'll go." As you turned, he reached out to catch your wrist.

"No, don't." he said hastily. "That's not what I meant. Why are you here? I mean, how did you get here?"

"I took a cab. I came to see you."

"By yourself?"

"Yes?"

"Are you crazy? What if something happened to you? I could never live with myself."

"My parents wouldn't blame you."

"No. I'm not talking about your parents. I'm talking about me. I would never forgive myself if something happened to you because of me."

You no longer wanted to argue. The look in his eyes was of genuine concern and love. "I'm sorry. I won't scare you again."

"You should have called me. I would have taken you here."

"Next time." you smiled. Then he brought you inside. Having you here along with his mother was like two worlds colliding. The two most important worlds to him.