Like We Used To [COMPLETED]

Claiming What's Mine?

Kai's

It's good to be finally back.

Ilang taon na ba? Tatlo? Apat? Hindi ko na matandaan.

I was an asshole back then. Pero nagbago na ako, para sa kanya.

"And what are you doing here?"

Naalala niya pa ako.

"Claiming what's mine?"

"As far as I remember wala kang pagmamay-ari rito."

Hindi pa rin siya nagbabago.

Napangiti ako.

"I missed you."

I was about to hug her when she refused.

"Please, Kai. I don't want to see you again."

Kadarating ko pa lang pinagtatabuyan na niya kaagad ako.

Si Lisa pa rin ba? Si Lisa na sinungaling?

"With all due respect, Miss Kim—"

"Mrs. Manoban."

I smirked.

Gaano ka kasigurado, Jennie?

"Mrs. Manoban, I want this café. Name your price."

Kumunot siya.

"Mukha bang kailangan ko ng pera?"

I heard from my parents that thier business is in danger. After kong marinig 'yon kaagad akong bumalik ng Korea. Gusto kong ako ang sumagip sa kanya.

"I don't want to offend you Mrs. Manoban but I heard that your company is—"

"I don't care, Mr. Kim. I don't need you. I have my wife."

"So totoong fixed marriange nga?"

May pag-asa pa ako.

Hmm. Jongin! She can be yours.

"Fixed marriage huh? Do you know that thing called LOVE? I guess you don't. Poor you, Kai."

Tatalikod na sana siya nang bigla siyang madulas. At mas mabilis ako kaysa sahig. Sa braso ko siya bumagsak.

Pinagmasdan ko siyang maigi. 'Yung maganda niya mata, matangos na ilong, mandu cheeks, kissable lips— damn! I want to kiss her.

"Get off me you asshole!"

Wow? I just saved her from falling. She should be thankful.

"You're welcome, Mrs. Manoban."

I let her go, for now.

"Kai, ayaw na kita makikita rito. Hindi ko kailangan ng kahit na ano galing sa 'yo."

"But Jen,"

"Please, Kai."

Nakikiusap ang mga mata niya, at hindi ko 'yon matatanggihan.

"Okay. But if you need me, i'm just one call away."

"I will never be needing you, Mr. Kim."

It hurts, why can't I have you Jennie?

"If that's the case, then good bye. I'll see you around, Mrs. Manoban."

Kaagad akong lumabas ng café. Palagay ko natalo na naman ako. Sa ikalawang pagkakataon natalo na naman ako.

Paano ba kita makukuha, Jennie Kim? You should be a Kim not a Manoban.

Pumasok ako sa sasakyan at kaagad ko rin itong pinatakbo.

I dialed her number.

"Where are you?"

"---"

"Okay, i'll be there.

***

After we made love, we cudled.

"How's life, babe?"

I asked her.

"Hindi ba dapat na tayong tumigil? Ang tagal na rin natin 'tong ginagawa pero hindi pa rin tayo nanalo. Parang napapagod na ako."

Hindi ko siya maintindihan.

"Ngayon pa ba tayo susuko? Malapit na silang maging atin."

"Kasal na sila, Jongin. Tumigil na tayo."

Napabalikwas ako.

"No way! Kung ayaw mo, ako ang gagawa ng paraan."

And I saw sadness in her eyes.

I'm sorry. I can't lose her.

"You're obssessed!" She shouted back.

Ang tagal na namin 'tong pinagplanuhan, bakit ngayon pa siya nagkakaganito.

"What happened here when i'm gone?"

Nalilito na ako. Hindi naman siya ganito dati. Baliw na baliw 'tong mapaghiwalay sina Lisa and then what's this? Turning back?

"Nothing. I just realized something."

She's in pain.

I felt her pain.

I hugged her.

"I'm sorry okay, I promised Lisa will be yours. Just give me more time, please."

I kissed her gently.

Since college ganito na ang set-up namin. No string attached. Pero natutunan ko na rin siyang pahalagahan. Marami na rin siyang nai-sacrifice para dito.

"Kai, i'll be gone."

Did I heard it right?

"Gone? What do you mean?"

"For good. Hindi ko na kaya."

At tuluyan na siyang humagulhol.

Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Hinigpitan ko na lang ang yakap sa kanya.

"Ssshhh. Enough. Just rest, okay."

"You'll never see me after tomorrow."

Seryoso ba siya?

"How about your Lisa?"

"Tinanggap ko nang hindi talaga siya magiging akin. Isinuko ko na siya. Kahit naman anong gawin kong paglaban hinding-hindi ako mananalo. Matagal ko silang ninakawan ang oras sa isa't isa at pinagsisisihan ko 'yon."

Tuloy pa rin siya sa pag-iyak. Gumanti siya ng yakap.

"Sshh. Stop talking."

"Thank you for those years, Kai. I can't have Lisa but atleast I have you. I had you."

She closed her eyes.

"Good bye, thank you for everything, Sana."

(Kumusta naman 'yung matatagalan daw bago mag-update? HAHAHAHA. So how was it? Mag-comment naman kayo. Need to hear your thoughts. I mean need to read what's on your mind. Tutuloy ko pa ba?" BLACKPINK in Thailand. Haha. Flex ko lang. Char! Jennie's such a tease. Jisoo's visual. Gosh. Goddess Rosé. I can't.)