I just realized that I'm at the age that I have been waiting for my entire life and it is nothing like I dreamt of.
When I was younger had the most basic dream of being the head cheerleader and being in love with the varsity quarterback and everyone loved us and we loved each other and we both got good grades and went off to the day college and spent the rest of our lives together and we were happy all the time.
Present Day: I'm in theatre but I don't really like it?¿ except I also love it and I'm depressed half the time and I'm gay and have a giant crush on one of my straight best friends and I'm not skinny like I imagined myself to be.
And this is a weird age because I'm starting to be the same age or older than the main characters in teen dramas and Disney movies and I don't know how I feel about it because my life is not like a Disney Channel Original Movie and I'm more than disappointed.
I'm just in a weird place right now. I'm going into senior year and I'm excited but also terrified and angry and sad just thinking about it.
Also I need a new phone. And I know I need a new phone but I kinda hate the thought of getting a new phone and just... yeah idk I'm just really sad today guys, that's all
