I think all of my friends have helped me in thinking that the reason Cassie and I had had a bad relationship was because Cassie is a bad person, but I think it's because I'm really bad at relationships. I feel like I shouldn't have relationships with people because I'm terrible at communicating my feelings and that's probably because I've been "the quiet one" my entire life but the thing that sucks is Call and I were both "the quiet one" but now Call is not quiet and so I feel like I have to stay quiet because we can't have everyone be loud so I think I'm just going to stay quiet and not talk to anyone even though everybody hates that.....I'll just be hated I think. I really feel like I'm a terrible person and I don't know how to do this whole life thing and also I think I want to be a marine but I think if I do that then later on I'm going to still hate myself because I'm only a marine because my brother is a marine and who am I? Who is Kamryn because to be completely honest I have no fucking clue I feel like I'm just the quiet version of everyone I know or have known mixed into one and there is nothing here that is actually Kamryn I just take everyone around me and throw their personalities in a blender and that's me. I dull version of everyone else. :))))
