I have a girlfriend that I love so much and I can't believe we're dating and it's going fantastic. I can't even express how much love I have for this girl like oh my goodness I want to cry because my emotions are so overwhelmed with love for her. But that's not what I came here to talk about, even though I could talk about her forever.
I came out as pan to my immediate family my sophomore year. This was forced on me because the girl I was dating at the time told my mom that we were dating without telling me, so then I confessed to my mom and she proceeded to tell each one of my family members for me including her sister, and my siblings and dad. One night at the dinner table, the subject came up so I told them I was pan and then explained what pan was. It wasn't the coming out I would've hoped for, but you get what you get. Side note that girlfriend was extremely toxic but I was so desperate for a relationship I looked past it and stayed with her for over 8 months.
Now, two years later, I've realized I'm a full on lesbian. But, I don't know how to come out to my family because they all think I'm pan. And they are extremely supportive and whenever someone thinks I'm gay, they correct them and say, "No, she's pan" and then they explain pan if people don't understand and I will never be able to express how grateful I am for my family especially my brothers because I was the most nervous for them to find out but they turned out to be the most supportive out of everyone. But basically, I'm scared that if I tell them I'm a lesbian that they will.......I don't know, I really don't know. I'm just nervous and awkward and don't talk much, if at all. So, I don't know how to bring it up without being awkward.
So that's the tea.
