I just fell really hard and now I'm just spiraling very fast and just the fact that this is happening makes it even worse and acknowledging it in the way I am right now makes one of the reasons I'm falling even worse and this is very vague and I wish could keep up my relationships with people but it's a lot of work and I know that sounds kinda bad but I just like being alone a lot and I love friends but I don't want to have to talk to them all the time because sometimes I just can't physically, mentally or emotionally have a genuine conversation with people. I'm just sad ://///
