𝐄𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐧 ♦ 𝐑𝐃𝐑

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An hour or so ticked on. The doctor never left the damn room. I didn't hear anything, I couldn't. I was worried beyond belief at this point that this damn kid wasn't gonna make it and when his wife got here, I was going to have to tell her that he was gone and it was all my fault. Everything in this life just felt as though it was my fault, if I had just stuck around, god, maybe none of this would've happened. Then again, it made me wonder if I would have altered this future my daughter had as well.
I'm leaned over within my chair, hands clasped together and I'm just focused on the floor. Waiting for this man to come out and tell me how it was. But he never did, and I didn't know if I should just walk in on my own and see what was going on. I couldn't do that though, I didn't want to be removed from the place or anything or else I knew people would be on my case again. I was still going through it within my head, how would I go about saying anything to my daughter and her mother when they got here? It's not as simple as I was thinking it was going to be. I would soon find out as I hear the door open, my head rising from where it was hanging. My former wife walking through the door and my daughter soon following. They both stop once they see me and all the blood I had upon me. "Antonio... How is he?" Rose questions before I just shrug. "Don't know. I barely got him here in time for me to know right now." I look back down to the ground before she sighs deeply. Sitting beside me and my daughter on the other side. "You got him here... That's what matters." She adds, but I can't help but shake my head. "It ain't feel like it matters right now, Rose. I'm afraid for him. Should've seen the look he gave me when I got there... His eyes, they just--- They said it all. He was ready at that moment but--- I stopped him a little too late. He was in pain and I feel like right now, I'm only making it worse. Ain't no way this man should've made it. I mean, you see all this blood? I'm just worried he's too far gone." I mumble as a couple tears pass my eyes. "I don't want you both to hate me again for this. I know I should've stopped him, but--- I didn't. 'Cause he looked so serious and even if I had, the government would've come for us all." I add as I shake my head once more. Rose lifts me up from my chin so I could look at her. "Ain't your fault, Asher is a grown man. He knew what he was doing. Just don't think he saw it like this." I look deep into her eyes for the moment as I swallow harshly. I look away before reaching within my jacket pocket and I pull out the photo he had within his fingers when I walked up to him, showing it to Selina. "He had this within his grasp when I got up to him. I'd like to think forever most definitely is all you need, Selina." I give her a slight smile as she takes the photo from me. I know it was hard to look at, given the blood and all. But it did make her smile as well. "He was so handsome when he was younger, not to say he isn't now, but then--- He was everything I could've ever wanted in a man at that time. He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world most days. He did absolutely everything for me when I got pregnant with Arthur, everything you'd imagine. Even so, as the years have passed, he still continues to amaze me every single day." I listen to my daughter closely before I smile even wider, though, all three of us now have tears streaming down our cheeks. "He loves you Selina... Like I said, he does, he really truly does. He's a good man, done bad things, but he's a good man. There is never a question in my mind that he ever was even truly bad." I state to my daughter as I extend my hand over and gently caress her cheek. "I'm so sorry, Selina. Again, I am. I love you, you're my daughter and always have been one of the best things that have ever happened to me. Both of you... Just the best women I know. I screwed this all up and I am so damn sorry." It took a lot for me to say these things to them, but it was almost effortless. Apologizing for the past we all shared. The two girls hug me together and I can't help but smile a bit more. They did mean a lot to me, Ryan did as well. Amazing girls and the love my daughter shared for her husband was beautiful. I just hoped that it was going to be beautiful enough for him to survive these gunshot wounds. All I can really say at this point.