Black Butler; The Purest Souls Hide In The Darkest Places {Ciel x Reader}

Don't Leave Me

        Ciel refused to talk to me the whole way back. He were on our way back to his estate, meaning we were leaving the city. I was thankful, I couldn't wait to be back in my regular room in the manor that I was sort of familiar with. I was not looking forward to my conversation with Ciel though. I hoped the ride back would calm him down a bit at least. Once we arrived Ciel stormed inside and headed up to his office.

        Sebastian helped me out of the carriage, "I... should probably go after him, shouldn't I?" I sighed, looking up at the demon. 

        "Yes, you should. The young master is quite upset," Sebastian led me inside. He went to the kitchen while I went up to Ciel's study. I knocked on the door but he didn't answer, I opened the door anyways, he was sitting at his desk with his chair turned away from the door.

        "Ciel... I'm sorry-"

        "Why would you give your soul away to a demon?!" He hissed, standing from his chair. 

        "I don't know, I was scared and I wanted to be stronger, I did it for you, I only wanted to help-!"

        "Don't. You didn't do it to help, did you do it for revenge?! Was it worth it?! To make it better you had to lie to me about it? I thought I could trust you!" Ciel stepped around the desk, meeting my soft gaze with his cold one. This was the most emotional I had felt in a while. It reminded me of my father and the way he used to yell at me...

        "You can! I didn't even know about my parents at the time!" I took a step forward, "Please, Ciel, I can't lose you!" I reached for him but he turned his back to me.

        "Don't touch me. You can't seem to do anything right, can you? You don't seem to understand what you've done!"

        "No, I-" I choked on my own breath, my eyes filling up with tears. It was a lot of my past resurfacing, Ciel was doing a fantastic job at bringing those old feelings up, "I do know, I was willing to pay the price if I could help-"

        "And now look. You've done the opposite of help. You're useless," He scoffed. That sent me over the edge. That one word. Useless. The word my father used to call me almost every night. I couldn't hold back the tears. Ciel turned to look at me, his gaze softening slightly as he saw me standing there with tears covering my face. I probably looked pathetic. 

        I am pathetic.

        I ran from the room as fast as I could, sobbing all the way. I reached my room and slammed the door closed, falling to my knees in front of my bed. I buried my head in my arms as a hand touched my back.

        "Shhh, he didn't mean it. He's worried," Alastair comforted. Which was odd. He's a demon.

        "W-worried?" I choked, "He d-didn't seem like it! H-he's selfish! W-why does it h-hurt so bad to think that he h-hates me?" I couldn't help but throw my arms around Alastair in a desperate attempt to not feel so alone.

        He wrapped his arms around me and cradled me against his chest, "I know it's confusing, love. He doesn't deserve you. You two will come to understand sooner or later."

Ciel's POV~

        Dammit. The second I heard her crying I knew I made a mistake. It hurt to see her like that, she looked so fragile. I was just... so angry. I didn't want her to be damned to hell like I am, I didn't want her to go through the pain of having her soul torn apart. What if her contract ends before mine? I can't lose her, I refuse to lose her. I care about her more than I have cared about anyone in a very long time. I need to make things right. I need to talk to her without letting my anger get in the way for once.