Childish | Jungkook

Chapter 17

Times like this were the best.

Leaning back against the headboard with a blanket wrapped around my body, a bowl of chips on my lap and Jaebum beside me, the both of us laughing together and discussing about the movies. It was a healing time for me, something I would need after a long day of work.

"Honestly, I don't really understand Spirited Away..." He grabbed a few chips before shoving them into his mouth and mumbling, "Did everything really happen?"

I only shrugged and grabbed my soda from the nightstand before downing the drink. I didn't know if it was real or not. Most Ghibli movies were confusing.

"This dude with this mask is really confusing, like? He was trying to eat this girl at first and now he's all chill in this house with her?"

I giggled, resting my head on his shoulder. "You're so worked up for this. Just enjoy the mysterious feeling it gives you."

"You know I don't like not knowing what I should know," he sighed, leaning his head on mine. "I don't like being left in the dark."

A strong feeling of rue grew in the pit of my stomach, running through my veins and begging me to come clean about my dilemma. The thought of confessing my past and regrettably, present feelings for another man to the person I was seeing was rattling my insides. It somehow felt wrong.

I sat up straight to face him with an uneasy expression as he looked up at me with confusion.

"What's wrong, Nain?"

His affectionate little smile as he waited for me to say something made it harder for me to tell him what I had been keeping to myself. He never hurt me or neglected me and showed me all the good things all the time but here I was, holding another man in my heart as I acted so close to him like this.

I was truly the worst.

"Have you ever... dated someone for a long time?" Now why am I asking this?

"No, actually." He chuckled, holding my hand. "Why?"

Holy shit... What am I doing?

I looked down at our hands, unable to look into his eyes anymore. "Well..."

"Is this about us going too slow?" His voice trembled a bit as he whispered.

I immediately looked up. "Of course not! I'm content like this, getting to know each other actually. No need to rush!"

"Then why? What's wrong?" Worry took over his features again and I screamed internally at how difficult it was.

"Then, have you ever had feelings for two people at the same time?"

He tensed up before furrowing his eyebrows. "What's this about?"

I gulped before forcing a smile. "Well, I, uh, watched this really sad movie about a guy having feelings for two girls at the same time and thought about how hard that would be in real life."

"What movie was that?"

I scratched my chin, looking away. "Actually it wasn't a movie, but an anime... N-Nisekoi?"

A chuckle left his lips as he leaned back against the headboard. "Don't worry about unnecessary things, Nain. Let's relax for today, you were really stressed when I picked you up from work."

That's because of Jungkook...

I gave in to his urging and relaxed against the headboard as well for I didn't want to ruin the mood. I could tell him later.