Sorry, I used to annoy you. I'm a lot healthier mentally than I used to be. Ya know that bible scripture, well you probably dont cos you're a spiritualist but still, "abhor what is bad, cling to what is good". Well, that was kinda what I was doing. You see, my life is like bad after bad, even to this day. Anyway, you are/were the first and only inherently good, pure person I've had the privilege to know and I think somewhere in my mind, I knew you'd be good to me/for me so I was kinda scared youd totally leave and take the only good thing away from my life and I'd totally be lost in a pit of despair and at the same time, some opposite side of my mind was like we have to annoy him to prove he wont leave. Backwards, since that was what put you off lol. Well, I dont know how it happened but I began to make myself think of the good within the bad (your playlist totally helped me - the other day I called it a PMA playlist but it never stopped being yours cos your influence is what made it become what it is now) and I stopped letting people and situations affect me. I took back control of my thoughts and I finally was able to relax around you. I'm not fully done relaxing but it'll come with time. All good things come to those who wait Seb! Like you! I waited for a fork in the road and I found it but it ended up being a cool meowsician with a human friend called Seb. Thank you for bearing with me and being nice to me through this annoying behaviour. I'm knackered so I'm going sleep now, enjoy your sleep too! I'm so bloody comfortable right now, I could drop my phone on my face and I wouldn't even feel it.
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Notes by Nailinthewall
PoetryIf you enjoy reading poetry, songs and quotes by a mentally ill female with a sense of humour then this is the book for you!
