Wont you stay with me?
You could be the one to save me
But you get lost sometimes
And I dont know where you go
You're there for a while
Then you disappear
And I dont know how to act anymore
And I get nervous
When I'm on my own
Why do you slink away?
Why do you sink like a stone
When someone makes you lose control?
Why do you imagine
Breaking your own bones
For something that's not your fault?
They wont leave you alone
Not when you ask them to
It takes a scream and a shout
To get someone to care about you
You're falling apart
Sinking into the blue
That they paint you in
And then they ask,
"What did I do
To have someone
Treat me like I treat you?"
You never learn
I break
And I fall
And I cry
Just like you
But you wont let me have the space
To do the same too
You act like you never knew
But God forbid I ever tell you
You'd just say I feel the same as you
You'd say it's not all about you
But when the fuck is it is about me around you
When you're too busy stuck up you
And waiting for me to be someone for you to talk to
I cant hold every piece of me together
Forever
Just for you
I need an hour or two
Or a lifetime without
Trying to fix someone as broken as you
I need to fix me too
You dont care enough to let me do
What it is that I want
Without being crowded by you
You dont understand
I feel the same as you
But I dont need to feel all your emotions too
Cos you wont give me time to work through anything
But how to fix your fragile mind
But i need a hand to hold
When life gets hard
And I start to get angry
And hate my life
I dont need your pain too
Let be a me that doesnt live to service you
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Notes by Nailinthewall
PoesíaIf you enjoy reading poetry, songs and quotes by a mentally ill female with a sense of humour then this is the book for you!
