Notes by Nailinthewall

warmth

I was born sad
It ran in my family
Like addiction
And compulsive personalities
Tried to exorcise it away
But my body was stock still
And the demons kept me safe
I stayed awake at night
Cos my anxiety wouldnt let me sleep
I wrote out other peoples lives
Cos I couldnt deal with sadness tinged in my genes
I was sinking in concrete
I was thinking that I didnt want to breathe
I thought I'd lose everyone
If I ever acted like me
I was drowning in being a nobody
Who didnt love anybody
Then I met you
And loving you became a hobby
I thought of you as someone I needed to meet
I thought of you as someone who loved me
And I realised it was okay to be me
I was born again
But this time I was happy
Cos finally someone loved me
Without hurting me