Avalance AU: My Reason For Now

10. Strawberry Kiss

*SLIGHTLY SMUT BUT NOT REALLY*

Sara's POV

"Of course this would happen to me with Ava of all people. I fall in love with the one girl I can't have. That's just my luck. I can't figure out if I'm happy or upset with myself for loving someone. Ava doesn't just give me butterflies, she gives me eagles that cause a hurricane in my lungs every time I take a breathe in her presence. Yea that's kind of cheesy to say but I read that somewhere and it's the only accurate way I can describe the way I feel when I'm around her. But then when my mind shifts to her most likely future girlfriend my heart drops. It's exactly the feeling you get on a roller coaster but less fun. You know? I just don't know what to do. What should I do?"

Ava and Jade just went on their first official and when Ava got home she called me, after Amaya of course, and told me every detail. Right down to how soft her lips were and how she held her close to her during the kiss. I was tired of holding my feelings in to make someone else's life easier but I couldn't put Ava under that kind of pressure. So if I couldn't tell Ava I had to tell someone else.

"I'm not big so I can't wide woller coastewrs. How did you get birdies in your tummy?" The little blonde that I decided to vent to asked me; she put her head right in front of my belly button. "Get out of my cousies tummy!" She told the metaphorical birds.

"Steph there are no birds. It was a metaphor." She cocked her head at me.

I forgot she was five.

"It's like a joke, but a real joke." She still looked just as confused.

How do you explain a metaphor to a child who can't even do subtraction yet.

"It's like if someone said you were a cheetah because of how fast you were. You're still fast, just not a cheetah. Get it?"

"Got it. You wike Ava?" This is hopeless, I need to talk to someone who understands big kid vocabulary.

"Your mom's going to be here soon so go make sure your stuff is ready princess."

My aunt just got back from her trip and is going to pick up Steph and take her home. I have to say watching my little cousin for a month and a half was not as hard as I had imagined. She rarely throws tantrums and is very introverted; she prefers to play alone most times and she'll really only talk if spoken to. Which is good because I wasn't being bothered ever hour with "I have no one to play with" like most kids. But now that's she's leaving I'm gonna be alone a lot of the time so that means I'm going to a fuck ton of parties.

That actually sounds like a great idea. A badass party and a pretty girl or guy, hopefully girl, to take my mind off of it.

People argue that drugs and alcohol do more harm than good but I've never met a problem that can't be solved with whiskey.

I go to text the group chat to see if they know of any parties going on.

Me: we all need to go to a party

Zari🌹: when?

Me: well idk of any but it's summer there has to be one going on

Charlie🌹: I know of four parties going on today

Nora🌹: I have something to do tonight but you guys can let me know when you need to be picked up, I'll be up all night

Nate🌹: with Ray? ;)

Nora🌹: High schoolers 🙄

Ray🌹: No not with me I'm too sore to do anything

Amaya🌹: Poor Nora