Avalance AU: My Reason For Now

18. Being 18

(Kinda a boring chapter because it's mostly dialogue)

Sara's POV

I was sitting on the edge of my hospital bed frantically shaking my leg with my hands clasped together and my thumbs fiddling with eachother. I watch them intently as if they aren't my own.

"Worrying about her won't get you any information any faster." My dad says.

"Yea well that's all I can do." I say pissy.

I don't even know why he came. Obviously he cares about me, he's not a monster, but if he didn't care about me enough to make an appearance on my actual birthday then I don't know why he's insisting on staying the night at the hospital an hour after my birthday.

"Just try to relax." He says.

"Oh yea cause I totally didn't think of doing that." I say extra sarcastically.

"I just don't know what I'm supposed to say here." He says his patience running thin.

"Normally when that happens to people they just don't say anything."

"Well I can't say nothing then we'll have that awkward silence."

"Silence when I'm alone isn't awkward so maybe if you just went home or wherever you go when you're not home. The bar must know your usual by now." I swing my head to look at him.

"Just because you're 18 now doesn't mean you can start getting an attitude with me and treating your old man every which way." He says getting a little angry.

Normally I'd get angry right back at him and we'd both go back and forth getting louder and louder until it turns into a screaming match and he storms out. But I just don't have the energy right now.

"So now you suddenly want to try parenting? After four months of basically neglecting me." I say sure not to change the volume or tone I'm speaking at.

"I don't know what you mean." He says waving me off and leaning into his chair.

"Yes you do. Playing dumbass doesn't work for smart people, and as much as I hate to say it you're smart." I have to fight my instincts to not yell at him.

"Then please! Enlighten me Sara!"

"You're never home and I know you're not always at work otherwise you would've had the money to get my car back." I say that with sass.

"It's been tough okay... since your mother left." He says getting calmer.

"And now he's trying to play the victim." I can't stay calm anymore. "Mom left me too okay! You're not the only one who got fucking hurt! But that is not an excuse to forget about your responsibilities! Grow up!" I can feel the tears on the brims of my eyes so I look away.

"I don't know who you think you're yelling at but you better watch your tone young lady." He gets up and I feel his head drilling a whole in the side of my head.

"Or what? You gonna hit me with that 'my house my rules' bullshit you've been shoving down my throat since I could crawl! New flash I don't need you or your roof that's barely intact! I can move out and you can leave!" I let out a big huff of air to calm myself and so that I wouldn't turn my head and he could see my tears fall. "Because we both know you'd rather be anywhere else but here."

I look at him to see him staring me down. He could yell, but he won't. He never does once I start saying the real, raw shit that he's been avoiding.

He gets up and walks towards the door. I move my attention from him to the clock that I've been glancing at since 9:30 when Ava and I got here.

"I could throw all your shit out on the curb like an ass but since I am still your father, as much as you don't want me to be, I won't. I'll give you until your cleared to have a place to live. And I'll give you two days after that to get all your shit, and your dumb ass dogs out." The tears start streaming down my face and I'm glad I'm not facing him.