Lumière // h.s

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Harry's POV

The past week has flown by, the boys and I were now in Turin, Italy. It was hot, really hot.

I'd seen photos; fan photos and pap photos of Cait all week. Photos of her lunching with Gemma, walking to a shoot, looking for a car, shopping with Gemma, and the one that hurt me the most;

House hunting.

I thought she was happy living with me, I thought us being together meant she'd stay, we already don't see each other a lot, with her career now it's only going to get harder - why would she then want to move out?

"You okay?" Lou asked, spraying my hair.

"Mhmm," I frowned looking at my phone. Cait had a shoot today but she finished by now, she said she'd phone or text me before my show but.. she hadn't.

"Tell me." She sighs putting the spray down and sitting beside me.

"Just.. I sound pathetic." I shake my head.

"Harry," I look up at Lou. "It's me."

She was right, it was her. Just Lou. My big sister, my confidant, one of my best and closest friends.

"Cait said she'd text or call me before my show. She had a show today, I want to hear about it,talk to her, hear her voice."

Her smile softens. "That's not pathetic, that's being a boyfriend." She nudges me.

"I don't want to smother her, or be demanding or too clingy."

She shakes her head, "You're none of those, you and Cait both know that."

I nod.

"Are you worried about the distance?"

"I.. guess. It's been a week and this is happening already, her career and mine clashing."

"You both need careers,"

"I know she's just going to be so busy and we're hardly going to speak, I.. don't want us to drift."

"Maybe she feels the same?"

Maybe.

"I don't know." I sigh. "I don't know anything anymore."

"What are you saying Harry?"

"I don't know how this is going to work,"

"You're really doubting Cait? After everything she's been through and is going through?"

I swallow, "I don't doubt her, I doubt us. Is she really strong enough? I threw her in this with no.."

"You didn't throw her in it, whoever sold those photos did. You two were great before the world knew. The second it's hard you're going to bail?"

Her words hit me, she was right. I can't just give up on Cait, especially not now. I saw what happened when people saw the photos, she went into some kind of trance, if we weren't together I don't know what I'd do if she fell like that again, I was the one to be there for her, but if I wasn't - who would be?

"You're right. Sorry, it's just a mixture of things."

"I know, you miss her, she's busy you're doing this. It's a lot, it's okay to freak from time to time."

I smile as she walks off calling for Zayn to do his hair as I take my phone back out.

Me: Hope the shoot went okay. All the love xx

I sighed happily going on to twitter only to stop scrolling when I come across a photo. It was a fan photo.

Cait and Sam out for dinner earlier tonight #2

I went through all photos of them, she was smiling and laughing in every photo with him. That's why she hadn't bothered to contact me.

She was out to dinner, with him.