Lumière // h.s

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Caits POV.

Harry: Fancy catching lunch? I also need to shop for tour, could use a shopping buddy. x

Me: I'm busy at the moment

I wasn't actually, I was just in bed watching tv whilst reading and eating some watermelon.

Harry: Is this because of the paps? What the media are saying?

Me: Noo

Harry: It is, Louis told me it would scare you. I'll be over in 10.

I rolled my eyes not believing him.

But 12 minutes later Harry was knocking on my door.

"I told you I'm busy." I say letting him in and going back to my bed.

"And I told you I need to shop for tour." He stands at the end of my bed blocking my tv and frowning at me. "Please Cait?"

I sigh looking everywhere but at Harry.

"I can't Harry."

"Can't or don't want to?"

He reminded me of Louis.

"Bit of both."

He sat on the end of my bed. "So you're just going to ignore me because of the attention?"

I suddenly felt guilty. When he put it that way it didn't make me look great.

"I'm sorry." I stand, "Let me get something to wear."

Harry grins. "I'll be waiting in the car."

"So how was your date?" I randomly ask as we ate lunch. There were paps when we arrived but I walked behind Harry with my head down and followed him straight in.

He shrugged. "It was good."

I nod. "Do you like her or..?"

He finished eating what was in his mouth. "I like her but.. there was something missing, you know?"

I nod.

"So, I'm going to go on another date with her, try and get to know her a little better."

I smile. "I hate awkward dates."

Harry laughs. "She was a bit awkward, she kind of felt awkward to say much to me, she treats me like Harry from One Direction."

I smile sadly. "That's not good. You're Harry the loser." I joke.

He laughs taking some of my pasta.

"I read she's a model?" I then felt like a stalker but Harry rolled his eyes.

"She had one modelling job then got dropped from her agency. She works now for a modelling agency hiring models."

"Oh." I nod.

"Speaking of jobs, what are you thinking of doing? I mean after our tour are you going home or..?"

"I haven't thought about it. And I haven't yet agreed to coming on tour." I say squinting my eyes.

Harry holds his hands up in surrender. "It would be really cool if you came."

I shrug.

"You're a cool person, and I think Lou would like it. Also Sophia comes along sometimes."

"Sophia and Eleanor are like Bffs." I joke.

"I never understood your dislike towards her."

I roll my eyes. "I just don't like her."

"You'll get to see us perform, and you never have before."

"I have!"

"Once at X factor and once at up all night tour doesn't count, you didn't even see a second of take me home tour."

He was right. With how I am and my 'thing' I'm unable to be in crowded places. The thought of a concert just makes me ill.

"On this tour you'll have your own space to watch us. Separate to everyone else."

You'll have your own space.

"Like I said to Louis.. I'll think about it."

- - - - -

"What about this?" I shook my head as Harry picked out another bandana.

"You've bought six already."

"Yeah another one, then one for each day of the week." He grins holding the bandana as we walk around the shop.

"I like these jeans." I hold them up.

"Meh."

I gasp. "How are they meh? I'm sorry that they're blue and not black." I tease.

Harry smiles, just then his phone rings. "Sorry, it's Maria, I'll just take this." He smiles apologetically. I nod waving him off my smile slowly disappearing.

I head over to the women's area as I don't want to listen in on their conversation.

A few minutes later Harry returns scratching his head almost nervously.

"You okay?" I frown holding a blouse up and deciding I'll buy it.

"Um yeah, Maria just rang to tell me she has a couple hours free, and wanted to know if we could hang out."

"Oh," I smile a little.

"Is it okay if I.. go?" He fidgets.

But you invited me out. I sigh internally.

"Um sure, I'll- er make my own way home." I don't know why I'm so.. disappointed? I mean, I was actually enjoying today.

"I'm sorry Cait."

I shake my head with a small smile. "It's fine." My voice was small, I think I hid the disappointment within it.

I know he feels bad, and I'm glad he does, blowing me off for her. Oh so perfect Maria.

Wow, when did I get so bitter and bitchy?

I watched as he left the shop as I waited in line to pay for my blouse, immediately feeling alone, I always feel alone when Harry goes - what does that mean?

Me: You home?

Louis: I am :) want to do something?

I bit my lip not sure whether i did want to do something. I mean maybe I should just go back to bed and forget the world.

Me: Sure, lets have some sibling time - I'm in town x

Okay so maybe it's time I stopped being a bored.

Louis: meet you on Carnaby in 20 x