Lumière // h.s

[ s i x t y - s i x ]

Harry's POV

"She'll be on the plane now," Louis spoke checking his phone for the time.

Thanks for that Louis.

"Yeah," I mumble scrolling mindlessly through twitter.

"Did you speak to her?"

"Briefly."

"How did you know she was leaving?"

"Who didn't know?" I retort.

Louis shut up after that. He invited me and the other boys round for a 'boys night', I was the last person who wanted to socialise right now, how could I? Cait was on her plane to New York, right now, right this second.

I couldn't sleep last night, it ended in me calling Gemma at 3am who was angry but kind of glad I rang her.

She encouraged me to go to bed and if I even had a single thought of going to the airport to stop Cait I had to push it away.

I was so tempted to show up, tell her she couldn't leave. Beg her to stay, but I was more intelligent than selfish; I knew I couldn't do that to her, I knew I couldn't put that burden on her. I mean, what would she say? 'You've had a year Harry to fix us, why now?'

All night and all day I replayed that final smile she gave to me on the rooftop with my necklace round her neck, it was somehow burnt into my eyelids, it wouldn't leave.

I didn't know if she was feeling the same, if she was upset in the slightest to be leaving me or more excited to finally be in a place she's always loved, start a new life, experience new things, meet new people and fall in love again.

Could I do this? Could I really sit around here and wait a few months until there were more headlines of her and some American hunk walking around holding hands in New York? She deserved that, someone to look after her out there.

"Let's get this party started!" Niall exclaimed walking in with beer cans. Zayn and Liam followed, big smiles on their faces.

I stood up shaking my head, turning to Louis I sighed. "I can't.. I can't do this tonight, not tonight. I'm sorry."

I walked to the doorway and slipped on my boots.

"You alright H?" Louis asked softly so the others wouldn't hear.

I swallowed playing with my keys. "Yes and no, I don't know. My minds a mess, I just.. I don't want to be.. here right now."

He nodded understandingly before I left unlocking my car and sitting inside. I rest my head against the steering wheel for a good 10 minutes before deciding the drive away.

I didn't know where to drive to, it was the first time in a while I felt lost, like I had no one. Mum was too far, Gemma was out and probably sick of me anyway, the boys were too much for me right now, Cal was in LA.

I scoff, "I just want Cait." I mumble to myself as I drive.

I finally drive back to my place, it was around 10pm by the time I arrived back, once I pulled in and made sure the gate behind me was locked I sat yet again behind my wheel, my head resting on it.

Get a grip Harry, my mind kept telling me. You had her, you lost her, big deal, move on.

But how do you move on?

I slipped out of my car, turning back to make sure my gate was locked again, I always remember when Cait used to say I was flashy for having a gate that locked by button. I smiled slightly at the memory. I used to hate when she acknowledged my fame, she was my only normality.

I played with my keys about to unlock my door when I found someone, a very specific someone sat on my doorstep playing with my oh-so familiar necklace.

"Cait?" I spoke softly yet very, very confused.