I feel like shit. Not that I don't mind being Santana's friend, I mean it's better than not being anything at all. I just felt like my world was slowly crumbling down when she said the word 'friends'. Why can't I just move on from Santana why is it so hard? why is love so hard? why is life so hard?
"So you got friend zoned?" I nodded and Elliot started laughing to the point where their was tears in his eyes. I don't get what's so funny about getting friend zoned, then again it's Elliot and I wonder about him sometimes too.
"Sorry Dani it just...Im sorry it's just you got friend zoned without even trying anything. Like for Christ sake did you at least get her number?"
Shit her number, I forgot.
"Umm"
He scoffed crossing his arms "are you kidding me Danielle. You had one job Danielle. ONE JOB" Did I ever tell you how much I hate when people call me Danielle like so much.
"I was just so caught up In her beauty that I totally forgot" I just remembered how happy she looked when she beat me, she looked so cute I just wanted to grab her face and smash our lips together
He smacked my head "No just no" he scolded "I would give you her number but I rather not, you have to earn it. Either wait until you coincidently cross paths or go see her and ask her nicely of course and while you're at it get food I'm getting tired of eating healthy everyday this diets Isn't going to work for me"
Of course Elliot could never last without junk food, he lives by eating at fast food restaurants
"I'll get food because I'm hungry too and I'm so done with this diet also"
Going inside this Chinese I was filled with the warmness of the place all around, I ordered for me and Elliot, waiting for my food to be ready something or rather someone caught my eye. I couldn't believe it, Santana was with Lauren while Lauren had one of her arms thrown over her shoulder laughing at something Santana had just said. I was mad towards myself At that moment and mad at Santana for lying to me that their wasn't anything going on between her and Lauren.
They weren't alone of course Jamie and Megan were with them just sitting there which made me feel better about the situation.
Megan turned to my direction and locked eyes with me nudging Jamie to look at me. Jamie and Megan said something to Santana before getting up and making eye contact with me signaling to go towards the restroom
"Nice save Meg" Jamie said once we were in the restroom of the restaurant
" Anytime babe" I rolled my eyes "anyways that was horrible back there, now don't go assuming anything because I assure you that Lauren and Santana are nothing. N O T H I N G nothing" Jamie said speaking loudly
"Lauren kinda annoys me anyways like at first she was nice and stuff but then she just... the things she does make me dislike her so yeah and Santana is dumb at times like for example right now, like what was she thinking inviting Lauren to come and eat with us!" I just stood there listening to what they were saying
"Okay I get it your mad about it too" she nodded taking a deep breath
"No worries, since Lauren's in the picture there's no doubt it's going to be harder than I thought. What if she falls in love with her? I can't take that. It's just I don't want that to happen. She said she didn't have feelings for her but I feel like she does especially the way they were acting back there" I can't take another heartbreak. I don't want to lose her again, especially to Lauren.
"Just don't give up on her okay?"
"I would never" I told her with pure honesty
"Here I know you need it" it was a little piece of paper with Santana's number. I looked up and smiled at Jamie "thanks"
"Welcome just put it to use we have to go back and I bet you do too so see you Dani!"
(Santana's pov)
"We have to go to the restroom real quick" Jamie and Megan looked up and left in a hurry probably to go fuck.
"That was strange" Lauren said gripping my shoulder tightly like I was going to leave or something. I honestly don't know what possessed me to invite Lauren over like what the heck was going through my mind when I called her. I haven't seen her since Christmas and I just call her. Then to top it all off I'm still thinking about Dani and her stupid smile and cuteness, I'm so messed up I can't even think straight.
Now that I was left alone with Lauren It felt awkward, since she got here I've been trying to actually feel like I'm having a good time but I just feel guilty for making her think has a chance,when she has none, Zero.
"So Santana I expected to hear from you when I asked you to be my girlfriend but I guess I was wrong" she fidgeted with the bottom of her shirt
"I've just been busy with stuff"
That's a lie.
"Oh okay so do you um have an answer to my question? Would you be my girlfriend?"
"I um-"
We're back" Jamie's voice startled us, I mentally made a note to thank Jamie and Megan for coming back at the right time
"What took you so long?" I asked them avoiding Lauren's gaze burning through the side of my head
"Restroom" I caught Megan look up at something and wave at someone, looking directly at where she was looking at I saw Dani with a bag of food exiting the restaurant. Oh how this night can't get any worse. Just thinking about it made my stomach churn. I just hoped she didn't see me and Lauren together, once again I asked myself "why did I invite Lauren?"
"Ready to go" Megan asked getting up holding out her hand for Jamie
I nodded with Lauren doing the same thing with her hand and I wasn't going to accept it but I didn't want to be mean so I did
I walked beside Jamie while Megan walked beside Lauren talking about music
"I highly pin this on you, that was so awkward you don't understand" Megan said in an angry tone
"Well sorry I just couldn't think okay" My feelings are all over the place I can't even think straight.
"What's there to think just forget everything that you and that over there had" I shook my head
"Just don't date her and expect to be friends with Dani..."
Wait how did she...
"How do you know about that?" I stopped walking causing Megan and Lauren to stop
"She told us! she was there in the restaurant. We had a talk to her, she was disappointed"
"Disappointed in what? Me?" I rolled my eyes "She'll get over it" I honestly didn't want to deal with their shit right now just bringing Dani into the picture was enough for me
I turned around and grabbed Lauren's hand "come on" leaving Megan and Jamie behind
We ended up in her best friends apartment, all I remember from that night was the drinking, me stumbling towards a room, the roaming of the hands around my body, spending the night with Lauren....Oh shit
"That was so good" was the last thing I remembered. Wishing deeply that the person next to me was Dani.
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