apartment 101 | nick mara a.u

26. Missing You

Adeline's P.O.V

It has been a week I've been in this hospital, it is so boring just laying down on the bed and watch the television, eat, sleep and repeat. I used to love these kinds of activities before, but as times passed, I got used to do something more productive. Ezra has always been here to help me and so does Edwin and Ansley. I haven't tell Ansley about what Asutin's said a few days ago. I need to prepare everything before I tell people about what happened. Even Ezra didn't know the details about what had happened to me.

The crew has also visited me, they took turn to visit me so I won't get too overwhelmed. I asked them about what happened with the competition and Duante told me everything. They said they will miss me a lot but they understand the reason to I quit. I'm happy with the fact that none of them try to ask me about what happened, but I guessed they will knew from Ed or Ansley anyway.

All of my friends have visited, my boyfriend always here every visiting hours except that one time when Austin visited, my family has visited, even my brother and his fiancee also my father who usually is busy, they visited. Even Austin, a total stranger, who I just knew because of the incident and Ansley's story, he visited me. There is this part of me that questioned, where the fuck is Nick? He has been released and he was the one who save my ass, does he not want to visit me? Or at least know how am I doing?

I know that we fought before all those things happened. I don't really know what to feel right now towards him, I feel so grateful because he saved me, that also made me forgave him keeping secrets from me. But at the same time, I feel like I wanna scream at his face asking him all these unanswered question in my head.

I think I should go to sleep before I started overthinking again.

Nick's P.O.V

Since the day I've been released and I saw that Adeline's belongings were no longer in her room and the next day I got expelled from my uni, I feel devastated and mad. I'm mad at myself mostly, because I know that these things won't happen if I didn't say things that made Adeline curious.

After I exited the dean's office, I went straight to a bar downtown that open at that time. I ordered some beers at first then went to get a stronger ones. Edwin called in the middle of my attempt of burying the sorrows and like he always does, he went to get me because he knows how bad can it be when I drunk my sorrows away. After he took me back to my apartment, he decided to stay because if he's gone, there would be a fat chance I go grab more drinks from my stash.

The next day, he wouldn't let me be in my bag at all, he made me breakfast, then gave me an hour TED talks on why I'm not the reason behind all of these things and how much I need to visit Adeline and get my shit together. He said it's his way of showing sympathy and he cares, yup, smacking people with the harsh truth. Even though the half part of me wanted to ignore what Edwin said, half the other really want to visit Adeline and have a conversation with her like we used to. So that day, I took a courage to visit Adeline.

The first day I tried to visit, I was too late and the visiting hours has ended. The second day I tried to visit, I saw her dad and her brother inside her room, which made me backed off and just see Adeline from outside. The third time I tried to visit, there was Ezra in the room, which made me backed off again. And today is the fourth time I tried to visit.

I walked down the hallway to find her room, with grilled cheese sandwich that I made myself, inside my bag and also a cup of her favorite coffee on my hand. I know it's probably a bad idea to give her these but fuck it, it's not like she has stomach complications that made her not to eat her usual food.

When I arrived in front of her room, I peeked inside to see if anyone is there or not. To my surprise, no one other than Adeline herself was in there. I guess this is a good timing, Ezra was probably still in the campus or something, I could careless. I saw that Adeline is sleeping right now, maybe I should just wait inside until she woke up.