Memories of an Old Friend | ✓

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Hey guys. I post this author's note with a heavy heart.

Memories of an Old Friend is a very dear story to me. I started writing it when I was 15. I'm 19 now, so a lot of time passed since that girl and who I am today. This story is sort of my beginning and it holds memories that are truly truly so dear and important to me.

The main character is someone I can and could rely on when I needed someone to fill a void in my heart I knew I was missing. She is my diary and the pain she writes about is maybe only everyday casual things anyone can experience, but she was and is a really big part of me.

I've had this in my drafts for years without the intention of publishing it because it hurt my heart to look at what's written on the paper. It took a lot of refining and editing before I could post it here. Admittedly, that took a lot of energy from me. I didn't even proofread that well and I'm sure you've seen some errors here and there, but it's okay. Maybe I'll fix it in the future.

It's not exactly my most popular book. Man, it doesn't even have that many reads, but it's okay. Memories of An Old Friend is truly personal to me in ways I can't describe. It resonates with me and reminds me a lot of pain I know I have in my heart, but never got to truly share with anyone.

If this novella is something that speaks to you, I'm glad to hear that my writing could bring you emotions.

This was never supposed to be a love story. It wasn't supposed to be about the "you" character. The main character used him as an excuse when all she needed was an outlet to write her thoughts and feelings. She disguised her diary as a letter to Him. It's pretty simple to blame others for your misfortunes, and sometimes they're even there for a good reason. But from personal experience, continuously blaming someone just hurts terribly. It never helped me, so I don't get it.

She titled all these letters humorously because the contents really sucked a lot out of energy out of her. Repeatedly for years, writing to someone who hurt you wasn't really healthy. And after a while the letters had more space between them until it took her two years to write the last one.

I understand there's some plot faults here and there, but this novella was never supposed to be written so it could be 100% cohesive. The timeline jumps were how they were for a reason. The characters disappeared and that was it. That's how real life works too. People leave and that's it. You can't really beg them to stay.

Anyway, thank you so much for all your love and kind words. Thank you for taking the time to read the main character's words. In the present, she's a very lovely girl, and she still has many problems, but she's a good person and she's trying her best to move on despite what the past threw at her. She's brave and funny, and cool, and smart. It just took her a long time to see who she really was, but she managed to in the end.

I want to especially thank my best friends Anha and Patricia for encouraging me to post this story and for supporting me. You two matter so much to me and I'm so, so grateful for you. I'm so lucky to know you guys.

Thank you so much for reading, guys! It made my heart happy every time any of you would comment and vote :-)

All the love in the world,
- Faria