Miss Lovato, my teacher

Chapter nineteen

"Anything"

"Do you still love him?"

"Who? My ex?"

"Yeah"

"Why would you ask that?" she asked.

"Cause of the way you talk about him"

"What do you mean?"

"Well, most people who get divorced, talk bad about their ex and are mad and everything. But you're not mad at him. You talk like you understand him and he's a good person. You have something in your eyes when you talk about him, that tells me you still love him"

"What are you? A love expert?" she joked.

"No. seriously. Do you still love him?"

"I'm only telling you this cause at the moment I'm not your teacher, but I expect you not to tell the whole school, okay?"

"Sure. If I would tell anyone it would only be Mike and Andrea, but if you don't want me to, I can also keep it to myself"

"I'd rather you keep it to yourself, but if it'll effect your friendship, you can tell them. Just make sure not the whole school gets to know it"

"Ok, I'll try to keep it to myself. Now, do you still love him?"

"Yeah, I actually do. He was there for me whenever I needed him and he has a heart of gold. He's an amazing person, but I was just too much for him. I get it, it would be hard for me too if he was like that"

"Is he still single?"

"Yeah"

"Why don't you go out with him? Now you've got your shit back together, maybe he'll take you back"

"I can't do that"

"Why not?"

"I've caused him so much hardships, I can't just come and ask him to take me back"

"What if I talk to him? I tell him that you're better, you can handle it now, that you've got your life back together?"

"Thank you for thinking about me, but I'm not sure if that's such a good idea" she laughed.

"What time is he coming tomorrow?"

"Around noon"

"And leaving?"

"Monday morning"

"He's staying over?"

"Yeah, he lives quite far away, so when he's here he wants to spent time with us. He doesn't wanna leave right away"

"I think I'm gonna talk to him"

"I'm not sure that's a good idea"

"Why? Do you think he's mad at you?"

"No, he's not mad"

"Exactly. I've made up my mind and there's nothing you can do to change it" I said.

"Are you like this at home, too?"

"Like what?"

"Like this. You make a decision and are confident about it and don't let anyone change you're mind"

"Yeah, kinda"

"Can I now ask you something?" she asked me.

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