My Deepest Thougts

Pain

The waves is crashing the shore hard and the walls are closing in. Its like u cant get enough air to breath like ur lungs are closed and ur eyes are shut bc all the light its too much. Tears of pain tears of sadness of regret and shame. Breath heavy bc it hurts heart beat steady bc u know. Pain. Burning sensation. Voices screaming ur not good enough and never was. Thats all the things inside the head its addictive like drugs. Blood. Is whats on the ground when things gets hard and no food bc u cant keep it in ur stomach bc it hurts so bad. So u stop eating stop talking stop sleeping. Too afraid to go and too afraid to stay so its like ur trapped in between. Open pages highlighted words and someone in ur ear telling u to talk but u cant bc u have no more words to say that hasnt been said. Waisted time broken hearts its like ur worlds falling apart but maybe its how things are supposed to go. Maybe the world wants u to be like this so bad. Maybe just maybe all ull ever feel is alone...