My Deepest Thougts

~Loneliness~

I sit and cry and wonder why I can't be different than I am. Bitch, whore, slut, crazy, piece of shit, attention seeker, annoying, fat, ugly, lazy, hoe, a fuck up, dumbass, stupid. All the things that runs through my mind on a Dailey. I always wreck things. Always fight about things. Too clingy. Too whiny. Too much. I wonder why I'm like this. Why I'm the reason I'm always alone. But the more I hear these things the more I wanna curl up into something dark and hidden. Makes me wanna fold up into myself and disappear from life itself. No job. No money. Always sick. Feeling gross. I fucking hate life more and more by the second. Less and less sleep each night. Scared more and more. Bad feelings everywhere. I can't do anything to save myself. Let alone save what's important to me. I'm in my room allot and hardly come out. Never seen never heard never go out. I'm always alone which makes it harder for me to breath. Maybe I need to stop everything. Talking. Eating. Sleeping. Trying. Just lay here do nothing. Feel nothing but pain within. Just lay here in the dark. Trapped in my head with the voices. Just darkness....