My Deepest Thougts

~Darkness~

A mess is a mess when you got shit on your chest and regret is hate when you got allot on your plate. You slice your skin hoping shit will give in but then you think that maybe things won't break. But the evil sank in as you start to give in and the darkness evades as your vision starts to fade. Everyone who you used to talk to starts to back up and maybe then you will start to lighten up. Then something happens and anger sets in and then you lose sight of the one thing you called heaven. You said it wouldn't hurt but with the blood on your shirt stained bright red, you begin to put the gun to your head. Shit got worse but they don't know that only they can't save you as the darkness begins to show. Loneliness sets In as the voice grew louder but then you smile because you couldn't make Satan any prouder. Then you pull the trigger and begin to shiver. Only hearing a click you jump to your feet and begin to realize that you just wanted sleep. So you grab the pills you been taken for a while and lay down with the feeling of a high and a slight little smile. You put the music on only for it to fade for you are now deep in the black cascade. You down the last hundred then lay back to sleep and you think to yourself that not one will weep. You feel relief when you sink to the bottom you grab the bottle and drink the last drop only to feel your heart begin to stop. And you smile the first smile in a really long while because as quickly as it began you soon feel it start to end.