My Deepest Thougts

~The last thing ill ever remember~

I have never felt so cold in my life. Laying in the dark tears down my face having the urge to pee. Not having the energy to do so. The last thing I ever want to remember in my life is your arms around me. The warmth so early in the morning. The breath on my neck late at night. The way you kissed me to let me know everything's alright again. The feeling of love that I longed for my whole life. All I ever want is for you to hear me. See me. Feel me. But that's not what I'll remember. All I'll remember is all the night I stayed up crying telling myself I'm useless. Telling myself I'm nothing. All I'll remember is telling mommy I don't feel well. The last thing I'll remember is the tears down my face in a tub of hot water with bubbles around me....