My Deepest Thougts

~One day~

She was sitting in the first row of the classroom deep in her thoughts. Why did she ever let him in? Was it because of his hair? The way he looked at her when he walked by? Or maybe it was the way he was smiling at her? She stared off into space as the teacher kept talking about astronamy. Maybe he can change. She felt a pinch in her heart as his name kept coming to her mind. She smiled as the teacher looked at her and was thinking about how people dont understand her pain. The way she would cry herself to sleep every night. The way she crumpled to the ground when she takes a shower because she doesnt want to be on this earth anymore. Her daddy raped her and her mom tried commiting suicide in front of her. Her ex raped her and she lost the kid. The way thing had been lately wasnt the best. He gave her hope and life and he took her weakness and destroyed her. Was she not worth it anymore? Was all he thought she was was a sex toy? She started to cry as she thought about all these thoughts. Maybe she really was as worthless as she thought. No one wanted her like she thought. She knew only one way to make everyone happy.....