My Deepest Thougts

~New beginning~

Things ain't as simple as they seem. Goals set and out being on my own. Here and no way of turning back. Not sure if I even want to. Wanting to busy myself so things ain't being said things ain't being done and everything to go back to normal. I just wanna cry so bad Bc I want my mom so much but all this is for the best. Thankful for everything everyone is doing but hardly sleeping Bc my demons are following me everywhere I go. Why can't I sleep without seeing everything? Why can't I keep my mouth shut? Why does it feel so good but so wrong to talk about things I never talk about? I can't escape my head and I can't escape everything but I can work hard and achieve things I need to to make it. Maybe I should shut things out but maybe just maybe I should stop being nice to everyone and stay closed with certain people. Self control is what I need to work on. But it's so hard to do when u never done it to begin with. Silence is everything I need to be. Maybe it's best for this new beginning....