Built On Trust

Beach baby

Today's the second day we're in Cabos with Shay, and I woke up not feeling too good so Brad took her to the beach for a little so I can rest. I'm secretly hoping that I don't feel good because I'm pregnant, but I haven't said anything to Brad. He's probably thinking the same, but if he isn't I don't want to get him excited for nothing if I'm not. I hear them walk in and Brad take Shay into her room, probably to sleep and then he walks in our room laying next to me in bed.

"Feeling better?" He asks looking a little worried "You didn't seem too good this morning."

Guess I really am sick if he thinks I didn't look good "A little." I think about what I was thinking and automatically think of the biggest sign, and it hits me that I'm almost positive I'm pregnant "Can you do something for me?"

"Anything. What do you need?" He asks as he gets out of bed.

"I need you to buy me a box of pregnancy tests." I slowly get up standing near him.

He looks at me surprised "Are you sure? You took the one before we left that was negative, that was less than a week ago. I don't want us to be upset about it again." He begins to ramble on.

I cut him off mid sentence "Brad, I'm pretty sure I just wasn't far enough or that test was bad. I woke up sick today, and yesterday I wasn't much better, and I never got my period this month. At this point I'm pretty sure we only need the test to say positive."

"Okay, I'll get some. I'll be back in 20 minutes." He kisses me quickly and leaves to go get the tests.

I sit on the bed confused. I know what to expect, and I'm almost positive that I am pregnant, but I'm nervous. We've wanted this for a while, but at the same time I wonder if we're ready. Shay wakes up from her "nap" taking me away from my thoughts as I go over to check on her. Turns out she just wants up so I get her out of her crib and bring her to our room.

"Did you have fun at the beach?" I ask sitting on the floor next to her.

"Yeah." She says quietly as she crawls into my lap.

I hold her while sitting there for a while until she goes to play with some of her blocks just as Brad walks in.

He hands me a bag with the box in it "I'll stay here with her." I take the bag from him and go into the bathroom. I take the tests and then sit them on the counter. Instead of going out to Brad I stand there for 3 minutes and flip them both over. Both positive. I get excited and walk out to Brad with a huge smile on my face.

He takes one look at me and walks over and kisses me right away "This is so exciting! Congratulations."

"Both of us." I kiss him again and lay my forehead against his "I didn't think I would be this happy when I saw both of them positive."

"Really?" He asks me confused "I thought you wanted another one."

"I did, and I still do." I sigh and sit on the edge of the bed "It's just like a huge rush of emotions. I'm happy and excited but at the same time nervous and scared." I lay my head on him for comfort and he takes the hint wrapping his arms around me.

"Just know that everything will be okay." He pulls me closer to him letting me know that he's serious "I won't let anything happen. I'm here this time, beginning to end, I promise." He rubs my back for a while before loosening his grip "You just need to enjoy this, think about the baby you'll have and love in 9 months."

Him saying that brings back memories of when Shay was a baby. From the day we brought her home we knew she was a handful and she still is, but I love her more and more each minute. I get out of his arms and pick her up putting her on my lap and sitting back with him "I am, I'm so excited now that we really know. I want someone for her to be with so she doesn't look so lonely while playing by herself."

He takes her and stands her on the bed where she tries to walk around for a while "Maybe we should do something with her. She really likes the water."

"Then let's take her back to the beach." I suggest and he agrees. I change into one of the bikinis I brought with then get Shay changed and we leave. I put everything we have down and follow Shay as she slowly makes her way to the water stopping in front of it for me to pick her up "Mama up!" She says excitedly as she waits for me.

She clings on to me tightly when another kid accidently splashes and scares her "No water." I walk farther into the water slowly so when it touches her she doesn't freak out.

"She liked it earlier." Brad comes up behind me putting floaties on Shay's arms "I think that kid really scared her." He takes her and let's her next to him so she's in the water for a little "Do you like the water?" He asks her.

She starts moving her arms and doing little things "I swim!" She yells to Brad and I as we stand right next to her so we can watch her. Slowly she calms down and just stands still looking towards the sand "play there."

I pick her up and walk her out to where our stuff is and give her some of her sand toys "Be careful you don't get sand in your eyes." I brush some out of her hair and sit next to her "Do you like it here?" I ask and she nods, obviously annoyed I'm interrupting her play time.

Brad comes and sits down with us a few minutes later and we get Shay to share some of her toys so we can all play. She fights at first, but eventually with some bribing we get her to let us play too and we stay there for a while. I help her make some sandcastles and Brad helps her dig a little hole and we get some water then play with all of that before going back to the room to watch a movie.

"Mama, woody." Shay says as she climbs around on Brad and I waiting for the movie to start.

I sit her on my lap so she can see the TV and ask her who some of the other characters are when the movie starts "Who's playing with woody?"

She thinks for a while and looks up at the TV before turning towards me and answering me "Buz."

Brad pulls us both closer to him wrapping a blanket around the three of us "Good job." He tells Shay making her smile as she watches the rest of the movie falling asleep between us.