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Kabanata 30

Kabanata 30

Amina

"Why don't you choose him if you really love him?"

I tightly closed my eyes at sumandal sa saksakyan. I rested my head at pinipigilan ko ang pag tulo ng luha ko. My heart is still aching and breaking. Mas masakit pa pala na marinig mismo galing sa kanya kung bakit sya nakabuntis.

He could have stay away from that mistakes but he didn't. Lasing lang sya pero he is still completely aware of what's happening on his surrounding.

"God knows how much I wanted too, but I won't." My voice cracked but I still managed to smile to my brother.

"Dahil ba ayaw mong lumaki ang bata without a complete family? We are in the modern world. He could simply support the child."

I shook my head. With my status in life it is not possible to do that. Kung gusgustuhin ko lang.

"It's not like that. I chose not to choose him dahil nagawa nya nga akong lokohin ngayon ano ang magiging kasiguraduhan na hindi nya uulitin? It's not like hinuhusgahan ko sya but Lasing lang sya ağabeyi. Kaya nya pang mag isip ng tama. Just by kissing Angel dapat nagising na sya na mali ang ginawa nya but he didn't. Yung baby nila ang proof that he didn't."

Hindi ko na napigilan ang luha ko kahit na nakapikit ako. Mas lalo akong napahikbi ng punasan ni ağabeyi ang pisngi ko.

I opened my heart pagkatapos kong masaktan ng todo thinking I would be loved pero hindi pala. I got cheated on again. For the second time. Nakakapagod din pala.

"Bakit nila ako niloloko, ağabeyi? What is wrong with me? Is it because I can't give Liam what he need kaya nya ba pinatulan si Angel?"

Niyakap ako ni ağabeyi.

Nag-mahal lang naman ako pero palagi pa rin akong nasasaktan. Palagi nila akong niloloko.

"There is nothing wrong with you, princess. They just didn't see how precious you are. Stop crying, nandito lang kami nila Baba for you. We love you, baby Raja. We love you more than any person in this world. Hush my little princess... Ağabeyi is here for you. Hinding hindi kita iiwan."

He brushes my hair. Hinayaan lang ako ni Ağabeyi umiyak hanggang makaramdam ako ng antok at makatulog sa bisig nya.

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I sipped my coffee habang nakatingin sa labas ng veranda where I can see the whole city of Turkey. The day I confronted Liam was the same day my brother and I decided to go back in Turkey. Where I belong.

Dalawang buwan na ang nakakalipas ng tuluyan kaming maghiwalay ni Liam. Funny but I don't feel any hatred toward Liam. Nakaramdam ako ng galit nuong una pero habang tumatagal pakiramdam ko unti unti nang nawawala ang sakit. Tanggap ko nang si Liam ay para kay Angel.

"I will never get tired of seeing such beauty kahit araw araw ko itong makita."

Muntikan ko nang maibuga ang iniinom kong kape dahil sa narinig ko. Mabuti na lang na compose ko agad ang sarili ko at umayos ng upo.

Storbo.

"What are you doing here?" may bahid na inis na tanong ko sa kanya.

Hindi sya umimik instead, naupo sya sa bakanteng upuan sa tapat ko. Inilapag nya ang dala nyang tray na naglalaman ng cup of coffee at dalawang slice ng chocolate cake. He sat comfortably at para bang sanay na sanay na sya sa lugar namin.

"For you." he said at inilapag ang platito na may lamang cake sa harap ko. Bigla akong natakam ng makita ang cake. But no. Hindi nya ako madadaan sa cake cake na yan.