July 31st
Diary,
You know when you have made the right decision but then you're scared that it's the wrong decision because for now the right decision leads to the hard part you have to get through first to reach the easy part whereas the wrong decision leads you to the easy part first and leaves you in the hard part for years.
I understand why I did it but I wish I didn't.
I suck.
God, what if it was the wrong decision and this is the easy part?
I hated seeing him there, with his eyes all watery and almost stormy grey which was weird because he has blue eyes. I think I hate myself right now - how could I give up someone so perfect because of petty girls and stupid rumours? The hell is wrong with me?
Girls dream of having a guy like Cooper and because of a few girls I let him go?
My chest hurts and I feel so sick and I've actually been sick a few times too. It's only been four days and I already can't take it. It hurts. Everything hurts. Everything is disorientated and I don't even want to get out of bed and it hurts every time I walk or stand under the shower and I feel like my joints are rusty or something.
I can't go to sleep without seeing his face when I said it. It broke, it broke like glass and it shattered on the floor and I didn't even try to put it back together even though I so easily could have.
Is this what heartbreak is? Because it almost sucks as much as I do.
Hazel.
YOU ARE READING
Gravity
Teen FictionIt's funny how life works. You make decisions based on who you trust and how much you trust them. You fall in love with the most unlikeliest of people. And as soon as everything is going so very well, the wheel stops turning forward and goes backwar...
