Fuckboyish

TWELVE

I look at Jake in shock. I think it took him a minute too to figure it out.

"Move the fuck away" Jake calmly tells Luke while moving me away from the door.

"Or else?" Luke chuckled. Jake swung his fist towards Luke, followed by a sound even louder than the music.

"Get the fuck out of here, I'm not going to tell you twice" Jake says while kneeling down.

"Jake, please let's just go" I begged.

"What's going on?" Mike suddenly asked from behind us.

"Make sure that this piece of shit doesn't get inside of the house" Jake says while grabbing my arm and walking out. It was a quiet, cold walk.

"Are you cold?" Jake asks me, as if he could read my mind. I nodded at him. He smiled at me and took his black denim jacket off, gently throwing it over my shoulders.

"Thanks" I smile at Jake. I could smell his perfume, through his jacket. I looked at him and realized how perfect he's been looking. It had been raining a little, so his hair was a bit wet with a small strand falling over his forehead.

How do boys manage to look so cute when they're wet? I basically look like a wet ugly poodle.

"So, about yesterday" Jake awkwardly started talking.

"This might sound stupid, but it shouldn'tve happened" Jake quickly added, causing my heart to skip a beat.

"What do you mean?" I ask him.

"We were just drunk" Jake says. I'm pretty sure that I wasn't.

"I wasn't" I admit.

"Well, I was" Jake explains while looking away.

"Well, you know what Jake? If this is your way of telling me that I've been played, you can keep it to yourself. I knew you weren't boyfriend material in the first place" I angrily, yet calmly manage to tell him.

"Good, so, we good?" Jake smiles.

"Whatever" I sigh.

✩ ✩ ✩

We got back at Daniels and got in. Everybody had fallen asleep, as the rest had headed home. I don't know about Daniel's parents though. He told us that they would be back tonight. But I haven't heard or seen anything about it.

I angrily walked to the bathroom to get ready. I washed my makeup off and heard someone chuckle. I looked up, with the water still on my face and saw Jake through a blurry vision.

"Fuck off" I tell him.

"Ouch babygirl" Jake joked.

"Don't call me that. You were drunk during what we did, but you're not drunk now?" I ask Jake.

"I love you as a sister" Jake pouted.

"I don't need you to love me in any way, you're just an ass, thats all" I say since I don't want to sound pathetic or something.

"Do you need my love or not?" Jake joked.

"Fuck off" I whisper at him.

"Should I?" Jake joked while walking towards me with a smirk on his face.

"Stop" I sighed.

"Goodnight" Jake whispers while turning around and walking down the stairs.

✩ ✩ ✩

I've been ignoring Jake for almost 3 weeks now. The boys haven't even noticed. So funny how boys almost never notice a thing.

Let's be honest.

It's Thursday, 12pm and I'm waiting for lunch break.

"Hey, Jayde. You can't ignore me forever" Jake smiled as he whispered at me from behind me. I rolled my eyes and continued writing shit down. 

"I'll keep annoying you until you talk to me" Jake whispers again.

"Jake! Mind explaining the class why you found it necessary to interrupt the silence?" Mr. Jones asks Jake. I turned around and happily waited for Jake's answer, as he stared into my eyes and chuckled.

"Nah I'm sorry" Jake said while looking down at his paper. I turned back around and continued writing.

"If I get myself in trouble will you talk to me again?" Jake whispered. I shrugged as I continued my work.

"Oh come on!" Jake loudly spoke, once again interrupting the silence.

"Jake!" Mr. Jones whisper yelled.

"Oh my bad sir, sorry" Jake once again says and was silent for like, three minutes.

"It's so fucking hot in here" Jake loudly spoke, making me smile sneaky.

"Jake, I'm sick of you right now. Leave my class" mr. Jones says while pointing towards the door.

"Aw man" Jake sighs as I heard him packing his stuff.  I turned around to witness it. Jake kept staring at me, sent me a wink and walked off. Fuck him. Fuck his perfect fluffy hair that bounces up and down when he walks. Fuck his beautiful eyes and beautiful body. Fuck everything about him.

I don't want to admit it. I know I admitted my feelings to myself, but he's an ass and I need to move on.

✩ ✩ ✩

"And then I was like 'that's why your husband has left you!'" Maddie tells Jessy and Kimberley.

"No you weren't" I said while rolling my eyes.

"Oh yeah? How would you know?" Maddie asks me.

"I was standing next to you" I remind her.

"Oh shush up!" Maddie dramatically moved her hand at me.

"That new guy is so hot" Kimberley says.

"Oh look, he's got a scar. That's even sexier!" Jessy tells Kim. I follow their gaze to see Luke talking to a couple of girls. I rolled my eyes at the thought.

"He's not hot" I tell myself and look at Jake, who's been laughing with the guys at the table I used to sit at with them. I let out a sigh.

I've still been friends with the guys, but I've been trying to avoid them because of Jake.

It made me upset to see how I keep thinking about him, and how I keep hoping that he's looking at me, but he isn't.

I hate him so much.

I don't actually.

But I really really do and would love to kick his ass.

"Jay!" Kimberley yelled. I jumped up and realized how the canteen was getting less busy. I looked over at Jake and saw them standing up too.

"Oh, right" I smile. I quickly get up and run towards my class.

"Well, bye I guess" I hear Jessy talk from behind me. I actually was dying for Jake's attention, I know. Sickening.

This plan will never work out. I'm so stupid, I look like a desperate bitch seeking for attention.

"Hey Jay" I heard Jayden greet me.

"Hi Jay" I joke. I saw Jake turn around, give me a glare and looking in front of him again.

What the fuck just happened?

I looked down and let out a sigh.

"What's up?" Daniel whispered at me.

"Nothing" I smile at him.

"I'm not stupid Jay, I know that you've go a crush on Jake" Daniel grins. My eyes widen.

"Shhhh!" I jump on Daniel, covering his mouth.

"Ew!" I yell as Daniel licked my hand.

"Meet me at mine tonight, I can help you out for real" Daniel whispers.

"I'm only coming because I'm looking forward to hanging out with you" I lie.

"If you say so" Daniel chuckled