Fuckboyish

THIRTY THREE

"You're not my second choice though" I sniff. I heard the sheets move, as I felt his hand rest on my shoulder.

"Why are you crying? I'm the one who should be having a mental breakdown right now" Daniel chuckles.

"The fuck do you mean? I had a terrible day and now this" I cry.

"Jayde, Jake has been my best friend for the longest fucking time. You've only been here for some months now. Stop acting like this cause it's unnecessary. God damn it Jayde, what the fuck do you not understand? I'm so stupid to let a girl fuck up a friendship like that" he sighs.

"Are you fucking serious?" I gasp.

"Yes I am. You know what? I'm gonna tell you exactly what the fuck I mean. Since the day you walked into school, since the day Mike introduced you to us I already caught feelings. You know me, I don't believe in 'love at the first sight' because it's all bullshit. I still tell myself that that's not the case, but you seemed perfect. You were nice, always happy, always positive, you are beautiful, but you had a crush on my best friend and everybody could tell. I already done fucked up the second I decided to give this relationship a chance because that's disrespectful as fuck towards Jake. Now we here, in your bed, I try to tell myself that it's okay but it's not. You keep giving me signs that you're not over him and I'm not even mad about that, but I'm mad that you keep playing games. I won't be your second chance and I'm going to leave that here. As I said, you WERE nice, you WERE always happy, you WERE positive. That's all gone now, I hate negative vibes and you've been giving me nothing but negative vibes lately. I get that it's hard for you to let go of your past but you can't keep on living the way you are at the moment. Yes things feel fucked now, Jake is in jail now because he killed a fucking dude for YOU. I'm not trying to make you feel insecure about this, not at all because it definitely is not your fault. But get over it, please. Jake will be released soon and I'm gonna make it happen with the boys. You can sit in your bed and cry about how fucked your life is, but instead, you could help us too. Didn't you see Zac? Didn't you see his face? That's drugs he did. Zac used to be a crackhead, we talked him out of it. We talked Zac out of it all, Jayde. He stopped doing drugs for us, but now he's started doing it again because his best friend is in jail, let me not even start about the fact that they took Mike too, so they're probably BOTH stuck there. Instead of being there for my friends, I am here for YOU. I should be at Zac's house now, make sure he doesn't do anything stupid because you know how dumb he is, but no, I'm here with you. You're acting too spoiled now. This is all that's on my mind now, and you had to know" Daniel says, not giving me a chance to speak.

"Are you not going to say anything?" He asks in disbelief. I start sobbing while I turn around and give him a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry, you're right" I cry. I hear him sigh as he grabs me by my shoulders and gently pushes me away. He grabs my face into his hands and stares at me.

"Give me the old Jayde, can you do that? Even if it takes time, I hate getting mad at people, especially at you. That's why I'm willing to help you out, but you have to promise me to try" he says while placing his lips on my forehead. I quickly nod.

"Should we go see Zac?" I ask him.

"Are you asking this because I just got mad, or are you saying this because you're trying to help?" He asks me.

"Your talk did something to me, you were completely right. I want to go see how he's doing" I explain.

"Well then get changed so we can leave" Daniel commands with a smile. I quickly jump out of bed and check the time on my phone.

2am already..

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"Zac if you don't open this door, I'm gonna break it" Daniel yells while slamming on the door. We've been here for half an hour now, and Zac wouldn't respond.

"Can't we call the cops?" I ask Daniel. He turns around and stares at me.

"I just gave you a whole speech on how you have to be there for your friends. You don't call the cops on your friends, Jayde" Daniel sighs.

"They can break the door" I explain.

"I can break the door too. Can you even imagine what would hallen once the cops arrive and see Zac doing drugs? Do you want the third one to go to prison?" He asks me.

"Back away" he says while he pushes me to the side. He walks back and looks around him.

"Daniel" I sigh. He runs as fast as he can and kicks the door with a lot of force.

"This is never going to work" I tell him.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" He yells, making me widen my eyes. He's never acted like this. I just shut my mouth while I watch him kick again, and again, and again.

About fifteen minutes later, I heard the front door pop open, just as he was about to kick again.

"WAIT!" I yell, while stopping him.

"WHAT?!" He yells in anger, out of breath.

"The door is open" I tell him. He looks at the door and runs in. I follow him as we make our way towards his bedroom, where the door of course was locked too.

"ZAC OPEN THIS GOD DAMN DOOR RIGHT NOW!" Daniel yells while kicking it.

"OPEN-" He yells in anger again.

"THE-" he yells, while kicking.

"FUCKING-" he kept kicking.

"DOOR" he used his whole body, with a lot of force, falling into the room as the wooden door broke. I run towards Daniel as I see he's bleeding.

"Are you okay?" I ask him.

"He has to be here" Daniel says while looking around and staring at the window. His eyes widen.

"No, he wouldn't" he whispers while standing up and running towards the window.

"NO!" He yells as he pushes me away and runs away.

"Daniel!" I yell as I follow him towards the backyard, where Zac probably was at.

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" Daniels voice cracked. He was kneeled down and tried to wake Zac up.

"Is- is he dead?" I ask as I felt tears building up. I quickly make my way over to Daniel and Zac and kneel down next to Daniel.

"Bro, wake up man" Daniel cries while shaking his body.

"BRO WAKE THE FUCK UP" he cries harder. I cover my mouth as I couldn't believe it. What the fuck was going on?

"Daniel.." I cry.

"ZAC!" Daniel yells while slapping Zac in his face.

"That's it, I'm calling an ambulance" I say as I quickly get up and grab my phone.

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Hi guys! I just needed to ask you this question, since I really don't know what to do. So I decided to let y'all tell me what to do.

So I've been working on a book for a while now, and I personally love it waaaaaay more than this one. I don't want to release it before I finish this book first, so, should I take my time and release like 8-10 more chapters on this book? Or should I start wrapping it up and finish it within 3-5 chapters?

I'm asking this cause I kind of don't really have the inspiration to keep this book going lol