Fuckboyish

TWENTY FOUR

There I was, sitting in Jake's car with a little dress on. I usually never wore dresses, only in the summer because it would be too hot outside. But did I want to impress Jake? I don't know what I want, to be honest. Daniel is definitely my type, so is Jake, but he has a short temper, and so do I. I need to be in a relationship with someone that gets me, doesn't yell all the time, and doesn't constantly fight.

I just need time to think this all through, and I hate that I finally got Jake to like me back, and just now I'm realizing things.

"Do you have Aiden's number for me?" I ask Jake. He looks at me while still keeping his eyes on the road.

"Why would you want to have Aiden's number?" Jake asks me in confusion.

Aiden is school's biggest bad boy. Whenever you need revenge, he'd always help, whenever you needed information, he'd help. He's the guy that could even get you drugs if you asked him to.

"I just need it" I dryly respond making Jake chuckle.

"I'm not gonna give it to you" Jake tells me. I rolled my eyes so hard that it hurt.

"Of course you're not" I angrily speak to myself.

"What is it you need?" He asks me.

"For you to be less overprotective while we're not even officially a thing yet. It's annoying as fuck" I tell him.

"Why are you getting angry? You're not answering my question so I'm not gonna give it to you" Jake proudly says.

This fucking asshole. He treats me like I'm some sort of baby.

"Fine. I'll ask him tomorrow" I smirk.

"You do you" Jake annoyingly answers.

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"Despite the fact that we just fought, I still want to tell you that you look hot" Jake says while we were waiting for our deserts. I roll my eyes even harder then the first time, almost feeling like they were about to fall out.

"What is it with you today? You're feisty" Jake annoyingly says.

"Honestly, I feel like you're way too overprotective. It's so frustrating. I'm not a child, you know" I try to calmly tell Jake.

"I know I'm not supposed to bring it up, so I'm not. But it makes sense" Jake shrugs. I knew he was talking about Luke, and about him raping me, and that that's the reason why he's been acting like this.

"You saying something about not bringing it up, is definitely bringing it up too" I arrogantly tell him.

"Jayde I'm getting pretty annoyed by your behavior towards me. I'm trying to protect you, that's all"

"That's why you told Daniel about how Luke raped me huh?" I chuckle. The waiter awkwardly looked at me as he put down our deserts and rushed his way back into the kitchen.

"Really? You just say stuff like that out loud?" Jake sighs.

"Well, might as well yell it here, since you think it's best to let everybody know! Should I tell everybody I got raped?" I ask him. He looks at me in disgust, and I almost broke down in tears.

What the fuck am I saying? What has happened to my mind?

"O-oh my god Jake" I gasp.

"I'm sorry I didn't hear myself. I-" I sigh. He placed his arms on the table while letting out a sigh, and gently grabbing his hair.

"I don't even know what to say right now" Jake chuckled. He still managed to look at me in the dirtiest way possible.

"Me neither" I sigh as I stand up.